So last night I took myself on a drive... I needed to get out of the house, and no one was caring to do anything with me... did a bit of errands, then wandered around aimlessly... decided to drive to downtown Minneapolis, drove around a bit... wandered around downtown a bit... saw a bunch of places like the Vu and Sex World of course, drove a bit more then also found a cute little restaurant that I'll have to return to sometime when I have company.. or maybe on my next "date" with myself.... ended up stopping by the MIA for a while.. not that it was open, but I sat around enjoying the night air, it was peaceful... I think tonight I'll go to the sculpture garden... maybe buy a ticket for a show at the Guthrie (I have no money.. but I have no friends who'll roam around with me either.. and it's easier to pretend I have money than friends...) Either that, or I'll find something to do...
Sometimes I hate being alone... but I'm getting quite used to it now. I don't get scared when the house is empty anymore, but I think that's mostly because I'll just sleep when that happens... But then sometimes in my dreams I even feel alone. It's only three weeks until my class is over and I can head to Indiana.. I can't wait.. really.... I don't care if I'm in the middle of Amish country.. it'll be nice to take a break. I'll definately have to stop in LaGrange and take a look at my G-ma's old house, but if I start crying about that again, at least Lins will be there to take care of me.
Now to bitch a bit... my laptop decided to go *pouf* and shut down last night (in fact-- right in the middle of me attempting to update my SG journal). I'll set up my beast (my love of my life, built by me, gaming PC.. not as cool as it could be, but hey.. I built it myself in 10th grade as a girl.. so I'm DAMN cool) soon, but I have to get some extra internet cords, which is sad... and I'll miss crashing at my bed with the laptop.. but you get what you take, eh?
On the upside of things though, I'm still uber stressed, and therefore no appetite.. I've lost about... oh... 7lbs now. YAY! I know... this is not the way to lose weight, but if it's going to go that way, I'm not going to challenge it... This is something I've been trying to do for sometime, and if it means I have to be battling depression, stress, and everything else in my life to just succeed with this without really trying? I'll go for it.
I'm a bit worried for my friend Byll though, I hope everything goes well with him... I'm crossing my fingers for you Byll!! I shouldn't be worried too much, but this is enough to scare the shit outta anyone... so... yeah.
I'm going to run off.. hope this has been a delicious update for those of you who still read, and I'll hope to be online again soon...
Sometimes I hate being alone... but I'm getting quite used to it now. I don't get scared when the house is empty anymore, but I think that's mostly because I'll just sleep when that happens... But then sometimes in my dreams I even feel alone. It's only three weeks until my class is over and I can head to Indiana.. I can't wait.. really.... I don't care if I'm in the middle of Amish country.. it'll be nice to take a break. I'll definately have to stop in LaGrange and take a look at my G-ma's old house, but if I start crying about that again, at least Lins will be there to take care of me.
Now to bitch a bit... my laptop decided to go *pouf* and shut down last night (in fact-- right in the middle of me attempting to update my SG journal). I'll set up my beast (my love of my life, built by me, gaming PC.. not as cool as it could be, but hey.. I built it myself in 10th grade as a girl.. so I'm DAMN cool) soon, but I have to get some extra internet cords, which is sad... and I'll miss crashing at my bed with the laptop.. but you get what you take, eh?
On the upside of things though, I'm still uber stressed, and therefore no appetite.. I've lost about... oh... 7lbs now. YAY! I know... this is not the way to lose weight, but if it's going to go that way, I'm not going to challenge it... This is something I've been trying to do for sometime, and if it means I have to be battling depression, stress, and everything else in my life to just succeed with this without really trying? I'll go for it.
I'm a bit worried for my friend Byll though, I hope everything goes well with him... I'm crossing my fingers for you Byll!! I shouldn't be worried too much, but this is enough to scare the shit outta anyone... so... yeah.
I'm going to run off.. hope this has been a delicious update for those of you who still read, and I'll hope to be online again soon...
So as far as this weight thing goes, be careful. I am proud that you are loosing weight, but if you loose it the wrong way then u can gain it back and when u gain back you always gain MORE back. I really don't know what ways to tell u to loose the weight in a healthy way, but stress/depression or starving is soo not the way. Maybe you could go see a doctor and have then help set up an exercise plan for you, i am sure insurense covers stuff like that. i really should do that too, but no time anymore. well talk to ya later hun. if you ever need to talk call me(i might not answer if i am at work but i ALWAYS return phone calls).