renegadefuzz

you ever been so lonely that your chest actually hurt?

and for all you egotistical people out there (or one specifically) that does not mean I'm lonely because of you.

I've come to realise that my life is pretty empty.

I have friends who talk and chat with me, but when they go out they're all "Ok Ellen, cya later! bye!" and leave. They don't invite me to come with. I know that if I'm sleeping on the living room couch, people won't even attempt to look for me, because obviously I'm too hard to find.

I only get to hang out and socialize with people because I go into their room and sit down with them. I don't get asked to go places or do things. I have to come up with those ideas. And even then, normally everyone has plans.

But it's nothing against me, right? They're just busy.

I need a life. I need to quit feeling the way I do. I need medication.