I've been talking to some old friends recently and thinking how my life has changed, how my views have changed, and pretty much how everything has changed... I'm not sure what to do anymore. I'm excited about going home, and I know I've got friends there who want to see me, and that makes me happy....
my pretty much permanently single life now has got me a bit on edge... I guess it's an interesting feeling that I've not quite grown accustomed to.. What am I supposed to do? I don't really know. I suppose I'll get used to being lonely again and find it the norm, but for now I feel just a slight bit abandoned, but I'm proud of myself to finally be able to talk about it here. It's sorta changed my perspective on everything. I have the ability to do everything I want, but now I'm scared. I used to be an outgoing person, then I became a sad person, and now I'm just a quiet person. 3 years ago I would have gone to a party and ran around and had a good time whether I knew the people or not-- now I hide and am shy. I guess I'm afraid of not being accepted.
I need to do something to break out of this.. I'm just not sure what... and I'm afraid of doing anything else..
my pretty much permanently single life now has got me a bit on edge... I guess it's an interesting feeling that I've not quite grown accustomed to.. What am I supposed to do? I don't really know. I suppose I'll get used to being lonely again and find it the norm, but for now I feel just a slight bit abandoned, but I'm proud of myself to finally be able to talk about it here. It's sorta changed my perspective on everything. I have the ability to do everything I want, but now I'm scared. I used to be an outgoing person, then I became a sad person, and now I'm just a quiet person. 3 years ago I would have gone to a party and ran around and had a good time whether I knew the people or not-- now I hide and am shy. I guess I'm afraid of not being accepted.
I need to do something to break out of this.. I'm just not sure what... and I'm afraid of doing anything else..
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l7rules:
how long are you going to be home??? are you going to WI??? Are you not going to be on SG while your at home???(hope not)
oceana_____:
Hello deary, I am not quite sure what you all meant with your post in my journal but it made me laugh (mental picutre of you dancing on the tables at work 
) So we need to do something to rekindle the spirit within you -- lets see I will have to ponder this for a little while. I do have a couple of ideas that might work, but I think for the most part we just have to make you realize what kind of power you have as a single, hot and sexy almost 21 year old 
. I think we are gonna have to do some hard core clubbin (what beeter way to make you feel super sexy then going dancing and having hot boys drag you onto the dance floor). I will keep thinking of ideas though, and i will keep you up to date as the pop into my little head!!!!!! Okay well i gotta get to bed cause i am uber tired. night hun!!!!
) So we need to do something to rekindle the spirit within you -- lets see I will have to ponder this for a little while. I do have a couple of ideas that might work, but I think for the most part we just have to make you realize what kind of power you have as a single, hot and sexy almost 21 year old . I think we are gonna have to do some hard core clubbin (what beeter way to make you feel super sexy then going dancing and having hot boys drag you onto the dance floor). I will keep thinking of ideas though, and i will keep you up to date as the pop into my little head!!!!!! Okay well i gotta get to bed cause i am uber tired. night hun!!!!