oh awkward, awkward things.
So I was recently given a pet. Well, it was one of those "look, I found you a new friend" things, and I was like "New friend! I'll keep forever!" My boy gave me a turtle that he found while we were at his lake cabin. Turtle (he has no real name, as we don't know if it's a he or a she) is now living in a pimp tank condo in my hot tub room in the basement. I'm hoping I can keep the little sucker alive, as it's only a hatchling, and so far he's seemed pretty happy go lucky. He's not so much eating except for little nibbles, but then I'm not sure how much a turtle roughly the size of a quarter needs to eat in a day. If anyone has any ideas on western painteds, let me know.
Now about the boy. I'm finding myself in quite the pickle with him. You see, we've just been together for almost a month, but we've been friends for sometime. And I seem to kinda find myself falling for him. He's the sweetest guy I've ever been with and can say things that just make me melt completely, and he makes the sweetest gestures. An example? A guy has never put a blanket over me while I slept because I seemed cold. He also does things that I don't expect at all.. like stepping up to me in the middle of the living room and slow dancing with me to whatever song is playing on the radio for no reason at all.
Anyway.. the situation becomes evil when I say that he's leaving in 3 weeks. His internship is across country, and he'll be gone until Sept. The part that makes me sad? That he doesn't want a long distance relationship. I don't want long distance either, been there done that, but then I don't want it to be over either. It's one of those situations where nothing can be changed, and it just has to be dealt with the way it happens, but it still makes me sad. Especially when he acts like he feels as strongly as I do, yet he won't say anything of the sort. Not that he says he doesn't feel the same way... He just gets quiet, and he'll brush the hair out of my face and kiss me or something else like that. Once when I told him that I'd miss him when he left, he said "You're going to make it difficult to leave, aren't you?" Part of me is wanting to say that he's just acting like this because if we do get all super attached, it will be hard to do separation. So I'm keeping my fingers crossed that that's why he's holding back. Although I'm fully aware it could be wishful thinking, iIt's just hard to give up the happiness I've had recently.
all very dificult to deal with.
So I was recently given a pet. Well, it was one of those "look, I found you a new friend" things, and I was like "New friend! I'll keep forever!" My boy gave me a turtle that he found while we were at his lake cabin. Turtle (he has no real name, as we don't know if it's a he or a she) is now living in a pimp tank condo in my hot tub room in the basement. I'm hoping I can keep the little sucker alive, as it's only a hatchling, and so far he's seemed pretty happy go lucky. He's not so much eating except for little nibbles, but then I'm not sure how much a turtle roughly the size of a quarter needs to eat in a day. If anyone has any ideas on western painteds, let me know.
Now about the boy. I'm finding myself in quite the pickle with him. You see, we've just been together for almost a month, but we've been friends for sometime. And I seem to kinda find myself falling for him. He's the sweetest guy I've ever been with and can say things that just make me melt completely, and he makes the sweetest gestures. An example? A guy has never put a blanket over me while I slept because I seemed cold. He also does things that I don't expect at all.. like stepping up to me in the middle of the living room and slow dancing with me to whatever song is playing on the radio for no reason at all.
Anyway.. the situation becomes evil when I say that he's leaving in 3 weeks. His internship is across country, and he'll be gone until Sept. The part that makes me sad? That he doesn't want a long distance relationship. I don't want long distance either, been there done that, but then I don't want it to be over either. It's one of those situations where nothing can be changed, and it just has to be dealt with the way it happens, but it still makes me sad. Especially when he acts like he feels as strongly as I do, yet he won't say anything of the sort. Not that he says he doesn't feel the same way... He just gets quiet, and he'll brush the hair out of my face and kiss me or something else like that. Once when I told him that I'd miss him when he left, he said "You're going to make it difficult to leave, aren't you?" Part of me is wanting to say that he's just acting like this because if we do get all super attached, it will be hard to do separation. So I'm keeping my fingers crossed that that's why he's holding back. Although I'm fully aware it could be wishful thinking, iIt's just hard to give up the happiness I've had recently.
all very dificult to deal with.
oceana_____:
i am sorry my love....i miss you,i get back soon, maybe i can try to do a day trip to see you while i am staying with the parents...why not, i miss you so very much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! kisses 