renegadefuzz

So I'm attempting to write an update and still make it to bed before 1am so that I can get up early before class and go to the bookstore and buy the book I need to read the first ten chapters of before class, and then think of some interesting questions to ask in class so I can appear to have a voice, and well, not look stupid. I have a talent at looking stupid and asking stupid questions, so I need to be prepared to ask talented questions, because at a liberal arts school, there is such a thing as a stupid question. Yes. People tend to laugh at me when I ask them. Therefore I tend to not talk, but this semester will be different dammit. I'm going to do well. I want A's! All A's.. that is my goal. I think I can achieve it. Hopefully.

So I've been thinking about romance lately. How it varies and how different things appeal. What is more important? Something one has pined over for years? Something one lusted over most recently? or something one finds the most comfort in? Or should true romance only exist when the three are combined? Is lust essential for a like-love feeling? Or is giving into one's lust when there is no other option more like just having a quick upper to give you that love feeling while you're down? What about the proverbial one that got away? How do they fit into the picture? Is there room for lust or love even there? What of the hidden loves? That one does not know about for years and then is presented with? For a girl who complains so much about being lonely, I'm beginning to realise I'm hardly alone, nor unwanted. I'm just not finding the right piece that fits into my puzzle I suppose.

I guess I'll have to think on this some more, and think of more questions... Have to not sound stupid ya know....