renegadefuzz

so there are times when I just feel empty. I've no real way to describe it. I just don't know what to do or how to feel... I just feel like something is missing.

I had a discussion with a friend, well, a guy who wants to be more than friends. He asked me why I wouldn't. I told him I was afraid... afraid of commitment, afraid of relationships, afraid of getting hurt. He tried to tell me how I was cutting chances out of my life because I said no. He tried to tell me that my life would be more fulfilled with someone else in it. I thought that what I was supposed to be working on was realising that the exact opposite was true. That I don't need anyone else to make my life happy. I told him this, and he started in on how I'd just continue being lonely and depressed and my life wouldn't change.. it would be at an irrefutable and unending stasis.

I don't want that. But I don't know if I'm ready yet.

but I'm getting very tired of being alone.