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I'm so stealing this from Graycen...

Wearing: the same clothes I wore yesterday, with a few minor changes... a black hoodie, a black tank, dark denim jeans, a red bra with with polka dots, matching cheeky undies (Yes Gray, I like to match too!!)
Drinking: PBR... aaaah... to be a 'sconnie in college
Feeling: a little crabby, but with a healthy glow
Thinking: about...
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I'm no Barbie doll
I'm not your baby girl
I've done ugly things
And I have made mistakes
And I am not as pretty as those girls in magazines
I am rotten to my core if they're to be believed
So what if I'm no baby bird hanging upon your every word?
Nothing ever smells of roses that rises out of mud

Why do you...
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I == proud of me.

I so desperately wanted to sit down and unwind with a drink tonight after a long and stressful day. But you know what? I didn't. Instead I ate a lean cuisine and had a delicious glass of iced tea. Go me!

I also might have gotten myself into a rather pimp volunteering thingy. Tonight we worked the the EMT class...
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SNOW DAY!!!!


no classes today... campus is closed.

Time to go make a snowman!

eh... I'm not confused... actually I'm rather well centered right now. There are some things that I might question, but I'm not really sure I would do that right now anyway. I'm just living and enjoying my life. Actually spending time away from a damn computer and cutting my wires, so to speak. So yeah... Plus, I'm finding that people actually provide a lot of...
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I'm sorry it's been a while.

I guess life doesn't seem so lonely anymore...

so I've started to wonder. I know I don't have any tattoos, but sometimes I really damn well wonder if my forehead has the word "sucker" tattooed on it. Either that or "naive" or "goodnatured" or "gullible". Why does it seem that I always am the type who is used and abused? BY MY FRIENDS! Or my alleged friends. Oh wait.. that's right, I can't...
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Within about.... 36 hours my hand has been kissed in a oh so sweet, yet adorably charming fashion, at least 7 times. I've also gotten gentle kisses on my forehead, at least 5 times. For once in my life, I'm being treated like a priness.

I might grow rather fond of this. It was totally unexpected. I just need to decide what I want from...
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updating again in a brief fashion....

- rehearsal all week long has been going great. I absolutely love it. I think I have the music director convinced that I'm a vocal major. Well, he asked me if I was, and he was literally impressed with my tone and how high I could sing, while sick. Like he actually commented on it in the middle of...
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so here is a quick update:

- valentines day was fun. drinking with the girls, burning of ex's belongings.. all together a good time. huzzah!

- the week was long.. I ended up getting sick... rehearsal is my only fun time of the day.

- cute boy at rehearsal is still cute as EVER.. mmmm how I want him. He seems really sweet too. *swoon*...
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so yay... rehearsal was tonight... and it ROCKED.

I love this show. I was a bit wary.. but I love the music so much...

and I have to say it to someone... but the guy playing Caiaphas is hot and he's a bass and his voice is DAMN sexy... oh it just makes me wanna squirm in my chair everytime he sings.... yup yup. damn....
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ok... So I'm doing better.

I've been drinking orange juice every morning, eating less throughout the day, and then I do yoga and crunches throughout the day whenever I get stressed. I'm averaging about 60 crunches a day. I hope to get up to about 100... but I'm working up to that.

I am feeling better. It makes me feel a lot better to do...
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