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Yeah.. hiding in the attic again.. now mostly because I'm alone in this house and it has a lot of voices I think.... So many people have lived here that the house seems hollow when no one's around.. So I'm hiding from them in the attic... it's not working so well, but at least here I can talk to people online, right? Oh well...

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so it's really fucking hot. I mean really hot. like I want to sit around sans clothes and just breathe. Attics do suck for this reason. Oh well. I chose the room, and now I love it. The way I see it, I'll lose weight just by sweating in the goddamn thing. Other than that the most exciting part of my day was burning my...
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So here's the most recent rundown of my life, which I seem to be taking back control of...

*I have my job, and with enough bitching, they actually gave me the 40 hrs a week that I demanded originally for me to stay over the summer, instead of just the 33 that they told me I had right before I went home for a while....
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Just a quick update before work... I've got the attic to myself this summer! Rock on! I'm excited. lol... anyway... gotta run to work.... dunno if I really want to or not, but at least now I'll get good money...

so now I'm permanently in St. Paul.. it feels sorta weird, but hey... what can you do, right? Oh well. I've got all my stuff, except I'm still room-less. Hopefully Amanda will get her shit organized (although I feel like she's going to take to the exact last day of her lease unlike everyone else who's moved out already). Again.. oh well... I'll just keep...
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Center on the wide horizon.
Focus on the galaxy.
Sweep away your expectations.
And recognise your enemies.

But here you're talking to yourself,
You're stripping off for someone else.
You've got to learn to love yourself,
It's all that counts; there's little else.

You're always looking for affection
And all its possibilities.
Your sense of searching for attention,
Emerging need of gravity.

I think you...
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So tonight is for painting. We've found a lovely shade of avocado (no shit) that we're going to paint the living room of DT. Why can't we use hunter green, or forrest green like normal folks? "It's too dark" *whine*. Right. Forget the fact that the walls are covered with light pictures, it has a giant walkway through one wall, and then the other has...
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Yeah, so I've been MIA for some time now, I know. School's pretty much done for. At least till around the 1st of June. Then I have to return to work and take Acting I. I've no idea what my grades are... or my final grades.. who knows. I don't care so much right now.

I've moved into DT.. at least half way. I've become...
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So I'm definately about to pass out.... like literally. Last night was my first all-nighter that was not voluntary and filled with things like parties or sugar. I did have two bottles of Bawls though (and I wish I had had two more, but then I probably wouldn't be able to sleep now if I had had two more.) Either way, I got my final...
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So last night a few of us decided to celebrate our liberation of our first exams. Some were celebrating the end of their "Religions of Southeast Asia" exam, while I on the other hand, had to celebrate the end of my battle with the Nemesis. Oh well. I ended up having to drag a friend who got alcohol poisoning actually out of his bed (which...
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soo... yeah.. faced off with the Nemesis for the final battle... battling grounds? The classroom... time? 10 am Monday morning... the weapons? Final exams and witty commentary.

The exam ended up being about 21 questions long (I know.. random..). I ended up only getting enough work for maybe a few points done on 16 of the questions... of those 16, I only found answers to...
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What's the difference of never knowing at all?
When every step I take is always too small.
Maybe it's just something I can't admit but lately,
I feel as I don't give a shit

Motivation such an aggravation,
Accusations don't know how to take them,
Inspiration's getting hard to fake it.
Concentration never hard to break it.
Situation never what you want it to be....
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