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here I am at 2:30 in the morning damn nigh, thinking of how I should go to bed because I'm going to be ass tired in the morning, but part of me just doesn't want to. I'm getting in that emotional state where I don't want to face the day... I need to quit this.. need to get better....

I need to stop wishing for...
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so I've acquired a new goal. I want to be down two dress sizes by the time my sister's wedding rolls around... maybe 3. I have 17 weeks. I can do it... just requires diet, and a little bit of exercise... it'll be good for me... my new goal.. you guys have to keep me motivated though. I want to look like I did when...
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so I auditioned for Jesus Christ Superstar tonight. I don't know how well I did. I suppose I did alright with my monologue.. nothing too fantastic. But then with the singing portion of it, the director just stopped afterwards and said "whoa... you can sing."

I'm hoping things go well. Callbacks are posted on Wednesday.



**edited on Feb 7, 2006 at 1:29 am**

so I...
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So I'm attempting to write an update and still make it to bed before 1am so that I can get up early before class and go to the bookstore and buy the book I need to read the first ten chapters of before class, and then think of some interesting questions to ask in class so I can appear to have a voice, and well,...
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So this weekend was great fun. Went up north to Molly's BEAUTIFUL house... like... it was godly... I would never expect to have a home like this in my life! I wouldn't even DREAM of a home like this... a four million dollar lake home-- which they don't even live at all the times! They only visit it on weekends! Shyte! if I had a...
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So J-term has now ended.... and I've had the most perfect class I've ever had. Out of the *entire* class I've missed less than 10 points. I feel very proud of myself, but it's just a first step in recovery for me. I have a lot more things to do.

Today was the last day of class, and Wallace brought out the airbrush. He was...
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I'm not sure what it is that draws me to my computer after I get out of my shower. But again, I find myself dripping in my folding lawn chair that I use as a desk chair, wrapped in none but a towel. I think it's a new comfort level for me. I also think it's because I hate putting on clothes right away after...
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so my advisor was talking with me today after admiring some of my work (apparently I do nice work...) and he told me that I might be able to get a grant to work on prosthetics and makeup to help expand my portfolio. He was discussing this with me about doing a summer gig and working on it to experiment and develop my portfolio, but...
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So here I am again... late at night, thinking, and rambling to myself in my head. I don't know if this is a good hobby, or a bad one, but I've gotten some good ideas this time. I've been thinking about my life and my goals and what I might want to accomplish with my life. I know I want simple certain things. I want...
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so yeah, I've recently been experiencing a life of second chances.... I thought that maybe my life was done, maybe I did something wrong and fouled it up something good. That it would be the end of me, but I'm suddenly having numerous chances opened up for me. Options that I hadn't thought of, that I was sure I'd never get again. And because of...
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ok... for all of you who expressed sympathy, I appreciate it, and I take it as a compliment.

That picture didn't have a real bruise or wound in it. That is make-up that I did in my workshop. I'm a theatre major and makeup is my specialty. I was curious as to see if it would work on camera as well as on the stage-...
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