reneemarie

Fucking gay sauce. Kenny is just plain bat shit insane. Hey that rhymed. Yay. I don't think we were meant to be friends. I don't think he's meant to have or keep friends. He's too manipulative and just fucking crazy. He called me this morning saying he needed help cuz he had to come to Albuquerque (needed me to pick him up) and do all this shit. I really didn't wanna do that, he was still mad at me but just wanted to use me cuz he needed stuff. Then he called my mom and started threatening her with lawsuit bullshit saying all kinds of just psychotic shit. Tomorrow isn't soon enough for him to go to jail. Our friendship just happened so fast, he did take advantage of us and lied to his parents and sister saying we treated him so badly. His sister is quite sane and nice and everything we told her about him selling his medication and lying and being crazy she just said "I know." Thank god he's going to jail tomorrow, a lot of people will be tired to not have to deal with his immature bullshit anymore. I know we will. Ugh I can't stand it. He just needs to be gone. It's not like we were best friends for years or anything, we just started saying that we were after he moved in and we hung out 24/7.

Anyways fuck him. I suck at having friends or any sort of relationship with guys in this stupid town. I just miss my friends in Austin a lot but when I think about how horrid it gets in the summer I don't want to move back. I'll probably be stuck in Albuquerque for a long time. I need to get my life together so I can have a life of my own and not have to live with my mom til I'm 30 something. I was gonna go to cosmetology school and my mom told someone about it who suggested I go to barber school to just cut hair. Then I won't have to be around chemicals and all that stuff. I'd still like to be a makeup artist. I dunno I just hope I can support myself someday and find someone that will always make me happy and not turn into a psycho.

Hmmm yeah I like my hot pink sheets. They are pretty I still have to go to AA. I haven't been drunk since that night Kenny told me to come up there to talk to me. I'm still glad I did that because he made me realize a lot of things about myself even tho he thinks he is perfect and the center of the universe but won't ever admit anything negative about himself. Ugh it's so hot in my room. Whoever built this house was fucking retarded I have the master bedroom which has 1 AC vent. It needs two, it's so hot bleh. haha baby goats are cute.