My life as i know it is over.......
I took the biggest gamble of my whole life, and i have lost in the most horrible way ever.....
So, the prologue is that i've been dating the same girl for nearly six years and doing the whole "love" thing. it hasn't been easy as she's been very needy and problematic, but i love her today as much as five years ago.
So, several months ago she starts freaking out and saying we need to get out of town she can't handle home anymore. i say, i'm not sure, that i'm not sure we should go, because i can't afford to travel 1,000 miles to a place where i know nobody with someone i can't say with certainty won't fuck me over. "of course not i love you" and we move to L.A.
So, i think by now you may have figured this one out. i've no money, no friends, crap job, and the girl says, "eh, i'm over it" i am fucked. why i couldn't have been dumped two months ago when i had a home, a good job w/benefits, and friends...i am filled with hate. The idea of love disgusts me right now. I don't take matters such as this lightly. If i say i love you, i fucking love you. Not: sure i love you right now becuase i need you.
i just am at a loss for what to do. i have spent so much of this relationship helping us deal with her emergencies and needs and situations, i can't believe she would do this.
so now is a time to be logical. i have to figure this out. i know when i look back on this i will hate her for what she has done to me, but no time right now. i don't know. i wish i could hate her now, but i see her and i still get that stupid "i can fix this i love you attitude" i don't think i can believe in love again.
so hey, if you know someone who's got a cheap room for rent near hollywood, buzz me eh. oh and i hope i didn't bum you out. i'm sure shit like this happens all the time.
I took the biggest gamble of my whole life, and i have lost in the most horrible way ever.....
So, the prologue is that i've been dating the same girl for nearly six years and doing the whole "love" thing. it hasn't been easy as she's been very needy and problematic, but i love her today as much as five years ago.
So, several months ago she starts freaking out and saying we need to get out of town she can't handle home anymore. i say, i'm not sure, that i'm not sure we should go, because i can't afford to travel 1,000 miles to a place where i know nobody with someone i can't say with certainty won't fuck me over. "of course not i love you" and we move to L.A.
So, i think by now you may have figured this one out. i've no money, no friends, crap job, and the girl says, "eh, i'm over it" i am fucked. why i couldn't have been dumped two months ago when i had a home, a good job w/benefits, and friends...i am filled with hate. The idea of love disgusts me right now. I don't take matters such as this lightly. If i say i love you, i fucking love you. Not: sure i love you right now becuase i need you.
i just am at a loss for what to do. i have spent so much of this relationship helping us deal with her emergencies and needs and situations, i can't believe she would do this.
so now is a time to be logical. i have to figure this out. i know when i look back on this i will hate her for what she has done to me, but no time right now. i don't know. i wish i could hate her now, but i see her and i still get that stupid "i can fix this i love you attitude" i don't think i can believe in love again.
so hey, if you know someone who's got a cheap room for rent near hollywood, buzz me eh. oh and i hope i didn't bum you out. i'm sure shit like this happens all the time.
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I live about an hour from there, so I wouldn't be of any help, but I just wanted to let you know that you're not really a bastard, and I hope you find a place because I'm sure you're a valuable asset to Hollywood.