rendo

So, i'm not doing too great. I'm in that mood where i really wish i could just erase all traces of my existence off the face of the planet.

Things have just been absolute shit for me, i'm finding it impossible to trust even my closest of friends, i hate being right (espescially when people call me a prick for predicting how shit would go down and then it goes down like i said). There was a shitty period in my life that caused me to move to Eugene. The same shit is happening again, except i've got no home and no way to get there.

I was having a hard time putting this feeling together, and then i watched this DVD called Live Forever that chronicled the rise and fall of Britpop (Elastica, Blur, Oasis, Pulp, Stone Roses, etc.) and it became clear to me as the dates were read off each album that the happiest time of my life closely mirrored the rise and fall of britpop, or eng-rock as Savage put it. Not because of the music, mind you (thought it does kick ass), but it was just a good time in my life. I seemed to care about shit then, i had passion and now...

But, hey blue skies, right? i mean, it was a good documentary. there will always be a good cd or movie to look forward to...