I cant believe I am still writing things here.
"Isn't it sort of egotistical to write a blog about yourself and expect people to want to read it, specially when they have never met you?" is what I have always thought.
But I actually find it therepeutic and realised no one is forced to fucking read it. There are enough beautiful girls on here that write better than I, AND with more interesting subject matter. So with that in mind, here is my self obsessed journal entry.
A future seems to be, very slowly, shining through the dark cloud I have been chasing after to wallow in. I recovered my photography portfolio of 10 years off a fried harddrive. It even had the shots i took of the beutiful moxi in an english tea party! And out of the blue a wedding organiser has asked to meet with me about shooting her weddings. (I cant lie and say its the content which is exciting me, I fucking detest shooting weddings, but beggers cant be choosers and maybe here Brides are not so ... high maintenance to the people around them!) I once had to separate a bride and brides maid from ripping each others hair out.
*Side note, why do women always go straight for the hair, and did this catch on before, or after, Jerry Springer?
And last night the man im seeing returned home.
Blah blah blah Anyway, Its coming up to the new year and close to my birthday so I find myself mentally assessing what I have failed or achieved this year. Does anyone else do that or am i just an over the top 'self-basher'?So next year there are going to be big changes if the stuff happening now is anything to go by. It might mean that I can finally move out and live alone. enjoy independence. I feel like I came through one of the hardest times in my life over the last year and a half. It very nearly killed me, so now I love the self I feel I have become.
And I have to say this blogging and shooting my sets, it all goes hand in hand. I tried living and keeping everyone around me happy, and thats cool, but this time i am going to do it AND enjoy and take care of me too. With all that being said I could just be talking out my ass, I will spout all this off and then get distracted by someone yummy.
And with that being said I just received an email from work so off I go. Happy Hump day
"Isn't it sort of egotistical to write a blog about yourself and expect people to want to read it, specially when they have never met you?" is what I have always thought.
But I actually find it therepeutic and realised no one is forced to fucking read it. There are enough beautiful girls on here that write better than I, AND with more interesting subject matter. So with that in mind, here is my self obsessed journal entry.
A future seems to be, very slowly, shining through the dark cloud I have been chasing after to wallow in. I recovered my photography portfolio of 10 years off a fried harddrive. It even had the shots i took of the beutiful moxi in an english tea party! And out of the blue a wedding organiser has asked to meet with me about shooting her weddings. (I cant lie and say its the content which is exciting me, I fucking detest shooting weddings, but beggers cant be choosers and maybe here Brides are not so ... high maintenance to the people around them!) I once had to separate a bride and brides maid from ripping each others hair out.
*Side note, why do women always go straight for the hair, and did this catch on before, or after, Jerry Springer?
And last night the man im seeing returned home.
Blah blah blah Anyway, Its coming up to the new year and close to my birthday so I find myself mentally assessing what I have failed or achieved this year. Does anyone else do that or am i just an over the top 'self-basher'?So next year there are going to be big changes if the stuff happening now is anything to go by. It might mean that I can finally move out and live alone. enjoy independence. I feel like I came through one of the hardest times in my life over the last year and a half. It very nearly killed me, so now I love the self I feel I have become.
And I have to say this blogging and shooting my sets, it all goes hand in hand. I tried living and keeping everyone around me happy, and thats cool, but this time i am going to do it AND enjoy and take care of me too. With all that being said I could just be talking out my ass, I will spout all this off and then get distracted by someone yummy.
And with that being said I just received an email from work so off I go. Happy Hump day
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wtk10025:
It is good to hear from you and your life. Glad it's been helpful for you to do it.