Thursday Mar 24, 2005

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Work Update:
I still hate my job!!!
This week has been stressful. Everyday, an ocean on pinpricks threaten to burst my grasp on control and sanity. The voice inside my head screams for me to do something rash and spontaneous, like just flat out leave, giving no two-week notice. It almost won over today. But I got to thinking (which I am prone to do too much of sometimes) about what my finances are like and how many hours I would have to work to equal my pay and just where would hire me...

I chose the end of April as a deadline for leaving my current position, but until I can secure a position elsewhere, I can't leave. I fucking hate this!!! I've never been this stressed out about anything in recent memory. The last time it got this bad was senior year in college. My insides are turning to gnarled masses of flesh.

mad Fuck!!! mad

Hey, in other news, I'm only a week away from heading to New Orleans for the weekend. I think I have secured a place to stay which is just off the Quarter. Vacation couldn't have come at a better time. I need to go and be free for a change, let the 'real' me out instead of being cooped up behind this brow-beaten shell portraying a poor facsimilie of Remyx. Going out on St. Patty's Day gave me kindling to stoke the fire. Now I'm ready for a full weekend.

skull
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catiedid:
OMG!!!!!!! it's snowing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
josephene:
Awww...*hugs* I hate that you're feeling so shitty about work. Those days when the word "FUCK" is the only plausible description, seem to be too many for you. Start putting your feelers out for something else. Find out how much you can live on, and look for THAT job. Sometimes a drop in pay in worth your sanity. If you would die at the end of the year, would you look back on this time in your life and say "look how much money I made" or "look how unhappy I was." Don't get me wrong, surviving comfortably is key, but you're self-worth is if not more, than at least equally important.

Keep your chin above water, honey...and try not to make decisions based on emotion. It's hard to do, sometimes, but it's not going to benefit you to up and quit. It would screw them short term, but it would end up screwing you more down the line. And haven't they screwed you enough? Leave with the dignity that I know you have, and a reference of what a great job you did for them, and not plagued with how you left. Just my opinion, I seem to be full of them lately.

Best of luck to you, honey...Good things should happen to good people and you are good people. kiss

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