remusisdying

im definitely in a weird place right now. i ate dinner at my dads cause my grandma and great uncle are in town, and then stopped by the kids house in salt lake. i arrived at an empty house, to learn from a note on the inside of the door that a and s are gone for the weekend. most strange of all, little (the cat), who usually runs away from me in terror, essentially climbed my leg in want of attention and petting.
driving home i started to think, which is never good, i really shouldnever do that. i really like being home, but im just not sure about this time. its weird how i really havent seen anyone else of late. ben is out of town, dont know where n and j are, and there really isnt anyone else. im also getting increasingly frustrated with n's friend molly. stupid fucking enabler.
its strange that i have been thinking so much. im excited to be in boston, but not at tufts. im happy to be home, but feel weird about not seeing people. im lonely but am glad that im single. ah yeah. also talking to moon a lot lately, and thinking about bethany. i need to do something. i drove around tonight for a while before coming home just to think. i should stop doing that.
sunday there is a partay at my dads for me graduating and stuff. oh well. awkward conversations and moments are so awesome.