rejoicingpeasant

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currently suffering the deeper throes of drunkenness, thanks to what i THOUGHT was going to be a tupperware party..

so the euphoria's gone, leaving me to ask questions like, "will i regret talking to that person i barely knew when i'm sober? was buying that measuring cup a good idea, or did it just look cool when she demonstrated it? am i frustratingly antisocial, to the point where it makes my own friends feel uncomfortable?".. and the such, you see?

i tend to get.. overlooked. and it's my own fault. i isolate myself. i don't usually mean to. i just end up gravitating to where there isn't a large group of people standing around. four, five.. that's cool. i'll make conversation. i'll joke. eight? nine? i just don't know how to function. my mouth dries up and my brain freezes in terror (unless, of course, it's a group of people i know well).

it SUCKS. i come off as weird and snobby. i hate it. i don't know what the fuck is wrong with me.

on a lighter note, i hit that PERfect level of drunkenness. everything just sort of.. slowed down. and i had more time to process each thought before it turned into a slurred exclamation. goddamn my retard motor skills. i have my wits about me, i swear.

i'm gonna go lay down and sort myself out. i think i messed up a little today.

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so apparently i'm growing a mullet. i don't know. i hate having hair on my neck, so this is going to be frustrating. i made the mistake of trying on a friend's mullet wig, and everyone went fuckin nuts and told me i needed to grow one. i guess i'm a sucker for peer-pressure. i'm the perfect candidate for a jedi-mind trick. seriously.

i've been thinking of just shaving off the sides for a faux-mo. i mean it's equally as trashy. the "hey buddy, i'll suck your cock for a sammich" look. it's just so damn hot, and i miss the shaved head. last summer it was glorious. and i JUST finished growing it out to the point where it isn't awkward-looking. i'm so bad at this game.

i'm going to a tupperware party with hellix in an hour or so. then i'm going to come home and knit. maybe have my girlfriends over to compare casserole dishes.

i'm such a fag.