I've come to the conclusion that it's better off that I'm dead inside. Every time i let myself feel anything it gets trampled like a writer's dream I'm Hollywood. Which just makes me angry and hurt causing me to lash out at those inmy life causing me to lash them away. yet when i kill all emotions inside me i feel nothing but empty and no one else gets hurt. I have learned it's better to be broken and damaged inside them to feel cause to feel means you hold on to some fake illusion that you can be repaired
