reject_jeff

Since the first day i found out i have shown emotion once.

At first i tried to drink the emotions away,

then i tried to ignore them but neither seemed to do the trick.

Finally i worked my body to total exchation daily.

The pain was buried for awhile.

Now that i have come to the boiling point,

now that i am trying to let the feelings out

I now relize that i may have killed what makes me human.

Where i should have some feelings of saddness,

For what i relize now has been months i feel only anger and envy

towards those who have not had to feel my pain.

I have slowly lost all feelings of love,kindness,and all the feelings that make us human.

I try to gain these feelings again but i feel that this is a battle i will need more then just me to win.

Hopefully i can start to feel these feelings again.

Hopefully studying our past will help us prevent from repeating it.