reekie

Thanks for all the people that left comments wishing that things will get better soon. I appreciate it! I just know its gonna be a while until I can stop making myself feel bad and just move on. I had a lot with this person and it hard to just move on. I hurt them by thinking I needed to leave. People kept telling me just to move on and let them figure out happiness/stuff for themselves and now I lost the only person that truly makes me happy right now at this time of my life.Yes we have our extreme ups and our extreme downs, but I just miss the extreme ups and I don't think anybody could give me that. I cant stop thinking about it! I sound pathetic and I don't care! I don't have my dignity anymore and I don't care. I wanna keep fighting to stay together. I don't know what to do.

I came across this while I was getting ready to dye my hair.

I dont usually like the really "singy" songs but its Jessie J and I am feeling down and in one of those moods. also in a way I feel this way. maybe not to that intensity but I still lost someone I love and care about

My hair turned out!

At least something went right. I have to admit at first, I thought it didn't. lol Don't laugh I am new at doing my own hair so I was really worried, in the first place. I need to start having confidence in myself and doing things for myself. Instead of worrying so much! All my life I have had people just doing things for me and not giving me the chance to figure stuff out on my own. I think that has held me back from doing a lot! That is going to change. I am gonna push my self to grow even more.

Well I am going to go on a walk with my little sister now. I am gonna spend sometime with her and go to the park. So I Hope everyone has a good day! I am gonna try!

I'll edit/update later