redwildflower

Yup I screwed up the date (we went on another one on Sunday). I doubt he'll ever call me again. I wouldn't call me again. He's probably better off.

Elaboration as requested:

I just got really sad. He was making me feel like I wasn't all that great but I was there. So, I freaked out and asked him if he's just looking for a booty call or what. And I told him that I'm not the booty call type. I guess it was how I said it because I was upset. I mean he said that there are some girls that you are head over heels for and some girls you aren't but after spending time with them you might be and I was the spending time girl. WTF! How offending is that. Anyway, he got offended and then I got more upset and we went on about it for about an hour. Then I wanted to leave he was going to bed but it was too foggy so I was stuck there. Then he kept telling me I'm difficult and negative. I felt like he felt guilty about hurting my feelings and being a insensitive jerk so he was blaming me for it and saying how awful I am. I was just soooo happy to leave.

What's awful abou it is that I feel like it was all my fault and I'm some horrible person and I just can't shake it. He either played a really good mind trip on me or it really was my fault but either way I'm so down and can't shake it off. frown In fact, the feeling of me being awful is so strong that if he did called I would probably talk to him or hang out just to prove to him that I"m not. Weird I know. It's very not like me.

So, that's the main just of what happened.

UPDATE:

Okay so I was on myspace and he was online ignoring me. I got offline and you won't believe the stupid shit I did. I called him. Oh yeah the worst thing I could have done. We had absolutely nothing to talk about and I got off the phone with him saying well I'll let you get some sleep. Then it occured to me we have no connection so why am I obssessed like this. It's weird. I don't even like him , in fact I kind of hate him for being a jerk. What is going on with me