redhotfuss

i am at work, i am always at work, i guess i need to keep busy. i have been deemed undateable by someone who later tried to get me to date her again,what is that? a guy pulled a gun on me on saturday, i laughed and called him a fag, i was drunk, he backed up and i told him i was laughing at his car. it was a big gun, all i was really thinking was'this is going to hurt' so i though i wuld see if he would shoot me in the back so i called him a pussy and told him to fuck off and turned around and left, he just drove away, i guess it wasn't going to hurt. i love east van. i still miss having a girl to uddle, but i am cold and prickly i guess. just feel to ugh to even care i guess, that probably doesn't mmake me look so apealing i bet, well thats ok, cause lke i said, i don't feel that way.my friend had 450 empty cans of pilsner in his cupboard, it was beautiful ( i put some there in my time living with him) i sang STRYPER' soldiers under command" on saturday in the name of the dead gay pope. then i drank a beer. did i say i sang? i TRIED to, i mean. this is a long blog.my back is sore, i sit at a deck too much, i feel gross.maybe i should just huck a 540 next time i ride the ramp, and don't think about the consequences, haven't had a good knock on the head in a year or so, so i should get it out of the way maybe. i was too lazy to go to the gym today, i never want to go again, but i want ot be smaller me again, i hate to puke so that s out. aagh. why is it really news if the pope died, he was 87 years old people, thats what old people do, they die. religion really bothers me, at the same time if it makes people happy and gives them reason for existing than good for them, but fuck man, thats why there is drugs. not really, but maybe. i love bridge mixture, it feels like such an old person candy, but who cares ,they need something tasty before they die. i could have been dead today, hmmm, would have been busy at work. and the porn shop would have been screwed.(pun intended) i have a gun on my shirt today too, never even thought about it. probably won't again anyways. what was i talking about? oh, had a diet pepsi the other day, and my friend said" they are all bad for you" so today i got a vanilla coke, i was looking for jolt. i would rather stick a pen in my neck. how do people on the radio like everything they hear? fuck are they fake, how many times do i have o hear the guy say, this is a new song from _____ and really i already herd it 4 fuckin times, TONIGHT. i really wonder. how does the rock station embrace U2 as the biggest band in the world? then talk about how great Metallica is and then say how hard metallica rocks secnds before playing the unforgiven 2. FUCK FUCK FUCK!!! sometimes i wonder if i could win a fight with a really strong dog. like really what am i saying. moving sucks, but i am at the end of the month, just a few blocks away, and i will have a room mate again, but it will be fun, i love living alone but there are always things i didn't like about it too, so it will be a nice change. so pickled peppers are perfect for pastrami picnic parties, thats what i was looking for, i am typing so fast . i think i have a problem,
i
am
definitely
broken
down.