A love letter that you'll never read..

This letter is definitely long over due and most of this stuff has been swimming along in my head for awhile now.

BME,

You did so many little things day to day when we were together and now, that only raises my opinions of you.

You are one of the greatest gifts I've ever received in life and you deserve to know it, but sadly I'll probably never be able to give you this letter.. but just in case I'll continue...

Let's face it my shot if whiskey. (Oh,how I miss calling you that.) I'm not that good with words and talking about my feelings sometimes, but I didn't want these thoughts to go to waste! So I thought this letter would be the best way to get all of it out..

To this day you remind me who I am, when I tend to forget. You always encourage me to be the best person I can be. I'm thankful beyond measures that you were my partner in life for the time I did have with you.

I'm incredibly blessed by the kids you gave me both living and our angel baby, I'm honored that you choose to still remain in the kids lives even though you didn't have to.

You showed me what love really was by having incredible patience with me during my shit days, and by being there every step of the way after my ectopic, you took care of me and showed me that you were madly in love with me by doing things like helping me in the bathroom after my surgery.

You made me realize how sexy my body was/is and the sex with you is by far the greatest sex I've EVER had, it's the sex I bragged to my friends and random strangers about lol.

I'm super bummed that I don't get it anymore... And I really wish that I could. You were my rock and I was blessed to be yours, I loved that we were there for one another even when it seemed like we weren't.

You life my soul up daily, you inspire me to make sure that if and when I choose to date again, that I choose someone who legit loves and cares for me.

You make all parts of my life so much more joyful even if I'm a raging cunt sometimes... When you kissed me the first time, I felt my knees buckle and I thought I'd fall over because my body felt like jelly.

You certainly have always had a powerful effect on me, I can still feel my heart race, my gut burning, and my knees becoming weak when you kiss me, or when we accidentally touch one another when hanging things off to one another..

I love your drive and ambition, I have always had faith that you'll achieve anything you put your mind to.

You are so amazingly loyal to people you care about.. the way which you love others is nothing short of inspiring.. I love your massive heart for those that you care for.

Your sexiness is one of the greatest things in this world and I couldn't be more attracted to literally everything about you! Your soul is so beautiful even if it's broken... And the next person who gets a piece of that will be incredibly freaking blessed and I'll probably be slightly jealous...

You're so thoughtful with me, I take notice in the way you buy me coffee or food,the way you still tell me how attractive I am. Your eyes... Oh my gosh those eyes 😍😍.. they're so captivating I honestly find myself getting lost in them on many occasions.

Thank you my old love for being you, you simply are the best guy I've ever had the pleasure of meeting, and I thank you for being you!!

I remember the first time we spent together, how nervous I was because I really liked you! I used to joke that your ex wife was just a place holder for me because I really had this guy feeling that at some point in out lives we were supposed to be, so when it happened it was one of the the greatest moments for ne because I felt it all through my body that we were meant to be.

Honestly, I'm probably always gonna feel that way.. but I'll try my best to remain your friend and be happy for you on your life journey..

Thank you for everything BME and if we never get the chance to try again, after youve worked through your pain etc..I thank you for the love you've already given me these past years.

Love always,

your glass of wine.