saturday night was strange. well, check that, strange and uncomfortable, for the most part. my "vice" pale girl and her husband came over to watch the rented movies we hadn't gotten to the night before. he got bored with the movies and went to play sim city 4 (fucking addict. at least he didn't even ASK to install it on my computer this time!). not long after that i got up to pee, and when i came back my fiance had his hands all in her pants. not a problem, normally, considering the three of us have more of a relationship than she does with her husband, but i was confused. maybe i should give you some history.....
my fiance, froggie, and i met the pale girl the day of her wedding. we had known her "husband to be" for a while through work, and thought he was a pretty good guy. so we went to the wedding. they had started the ceremony early, so we got there at the end of it. vows were done, we watched the photographer do the pictures, and everyone left to go to the reception. we barely had time to talk to the pale girl at all. from that day on, the "good guy" treated my pale girl like she was his possession (and still does).
over the next few months, we really got to know each other. then one day, out of nowhere, it hit us like a ton of bricks. the pale girl and i were in love. not only that, but we were in lust. she was married, i was practically engaged. we didn't know how to handle it.
so we made some mistakes, then we tried to talk to our guys about it, to get at least some leeway in our physical contact without having to hide anything from them. her husband freaked out. turns out she told him years ago that she was bisexual, she hadn't experienced that side of her sexuality yet, and likely would eventually. at the time, he said fine, do what you have to do. when she told him it was time, he freaked.
my fiance had some trouble with the idea of me being with anyone other than him, but we talked about it (does screaming, sobbing & sleeping in separate rooms count as talking?) and set some rules for ourselves. the rules ended up eliminating the chance for her and i to be together in any way, simply because her husband wasn't ok with the idea, so it wasn't going anywhere.
that was a year and a half ago.
since then, she and i have been great friends, she had a baby, while she was pregnant she decided she couldn't want me anymore, and for a while i think she tried to deny she loved me. we didn't talk for 4 months because of a huge fight we had. it was wonderful
.
a couple weeks ago, though, she showed up at my door to visit. an hour and a half is a mighty long drive to "stop in", i'd say, but she did. while she was here some things happened that confused me, felt like a dream, and fucked with my head for a while. if you read my other LJ (link posted 09/06/04) you can read that i was reeling for days. i was finally allowed to have her, and so was froggie. she had made the decision that while she is married, she is not going to deny herself a chance for us. so my fiance and i have acquired ourselves a pale girl with lots of curves.
froggie & i never talked about it, really, above the conversation where i told him "i have guilt" and he told me exactly why i shouldn't. we didn't talk about our rules, we didn't talk about what was allowed and what wasn't.
when saturday night came around, when froggie started with her, i didn't know how to react, what to do, nothing. my mind went blank and i got a knot in my stomach. of course she noticed i wasn't really ok, so i wrote her a note that was "i don't know what i'm allowed, i'm gonna talk to froggie, i'll be ok", and as soon as she & her husband stepped out my door, i asked froggie flat out what i was allowed to do. holding my breath, waiting for "nothing. you aren't allowed to touch her" to come out of his mouth, i was never more relieved to hear him say "whatever you want, as long as i'm around." the knot in my stomach immediately relaxed, we had some of the best sex we've had in months, and went to bed.
now i just gotta get to her
that's out of my head now, i feel better.
my fiance, froggie, and i met the pale girl the day of her wedding. we had known her "husband to be" for a while through work, and thought he was a pretty good guy. so we went to the wedding. they had started the ceremony early, so we got there at the end of it. vows were done, we watched the photographer do the pictures, and everyone left to go to the reception. we barely had time to talk to the pale girl at all. from that day on, the "good guy" treated my pale girl like she was his possession (and still does).
over the next few months, we really got to know each other. then one day, out of nowhere, it hit us like a ton of bricks. the pale girl and i were in love. not only that, but we were in lust. she was married, i was practically engaged. we didn't know how to handle it.
so we made some mistakes, then we tried to talk to our guys about it, to get at least some leeway in our physical contact without having to hide anything from them. her husband freaked out. turns out she told him years ago that she was bisexual, she hadn't experienced that side of her sexuality yet, and likely would eventually. at the time, he said fine, do what you have to do. when she told him it was time, he freaked.
my fiance had some trouble with the idea of me being with anyone other than him, but we talked about it (does screaming, sobbing & sleeping in separate rooms count as talking?) and set some rules for ourselves. the rules ended up eliminating the chance for her and i to be together in any way, simply because her husband wasn't ok with the idea, so it wasn't going anywhere.
that was a year and a half ago.
since then, she and i have been great friends, she had a baby, while she was pregnant she decided she couldn't want me anymore, and for a while i think she tried to deny she loved me. we didn't talk for 4 months because of a huge fight we had. it was wonderful
.
a couple weeks ago, though, she showed up at my door to visit. an hour and a half is a mighty long drive to "stop in", i'd say, but she did. while she was here some things happened that confused me, felt like a dream, and fucked with my head for a while. if you read my other LJ (link posted 09/06/04) you can read that i was reeling for days. i was finally allowed to have her, and so was froggie. she had made the decision that while she is married, she is not going to deny herself a chance for us. so my fiance and i have acquired ourselves a pale girl with lots of curves.
froggie & i never talked about it, really, above the conversation where i told him "i have guilt" and he told me exactly why i shouldn't. we didn't talk about our rules, we didn't talk about what was allowed and what wasn't.
when saturday night came around, when froggie started with her, i didn't know how to react, what to do, nothing. my mind went blank and i got a knot in my stomach. of course she noticed i wasn't really ok, so i wrote her a note that was "i don't know what i'm allowed, i'm gonna talk to froggie, i'll be ok", and as soon as she & her husband stepped out my door, i asked froggie flat out what i was allowed to do. holding my breath, waiting for "nothing. you aren't allowed to touch her" to come out of his mouth, i was never more relieved to hear him say "whatever you want, as long as i'm around." the knot in my stomach immediately relaxed, we had some of the best sex we've had in months, and went to bed.
now i just gotta get to her
that's out of my head now, i feel better.