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Wow, you sound exactly like me. I can't even count the number of times I've said the exact same thing in the past 7 years. What you have to realize is that you're worth more than you could ever imagine. That you're deserving of everything the universe can offer.
I understand that you get down sometimes, so do I. I mean January and Febraury are horrible for me to be depressed. I know. These past two months have been hell on George because I've been REALLY crazy. lol.
I also understand not having any passion, desire, inspiration to do the things you once lived for. I've been going through that myself as of late. It will pass. And inspiration is a funny thing, it can pop up anywhere. Just try to hang out with some very close friends. Just talk about everything and nothing, pig out on pizza and beer (or something like that) and watch really stupid shit so that you'll laugh harder that you ever thoughtyou could. It'll help, believe me. I did it last week because I wass uber depressed.

Well I hope I've helped a bit, I hope you feel better soon REbekah. I'm sending you a giant long distance hug!!!!!!!!!

~Tab

I used to feel that way all the time. I get that way every winter. Except now that I live in a sunny desert, I really do feel alot better. Some sunlight might do you good. I know this all seems like rubbish since you feel that way currently, but it really helps.