Feeling better today....have a new shitty job part time at a car dealer on reception, but at least it can pay the bills...sort of.
Ive decided to ignore my heart and try live without its nympho notions for a while. Its about time that I sorted my life out and decieded where im going at last. True im only young, but the longer I puit this off, the less chance I have of reaching what ever goal I decided I want to obtain.
Woke up lst night walking up the stairs....sleep walking is wierd. Only seem to do it when I m stressed, but I usually DO something when I sleep walk. No evidence of it though. Strange
Today I am writting more letters to random companies beggin for a decent job. Thinking of trying the local newspaper...usued to work for them in a way when I was a kid, but I have more experiance now. fingers crossed. And Im also going to lounge around in my pj's....because I can! Drink lots of blackcurrent tea and cook a huge dinner for when the bloke im livin with gets in from work. I
cooking! gonna go start prepare it now. 
Ive decided to ignore my heart and try live without its nympho notions for a while. Its about time that I sorted my life out and decieded where im going at last. True im only young, but the longer I puit this off, the less chance I have of reaching what ever goal I decided I want to obtain.
Woke up lst night walking up the stairs....sleep walking is wierd. Only seem to do it when I m stressed, but I usually DO something when I sleep walk. No evidence of it though. Strange
Today I am writting more letters to random companies beggin for a decent job. Thinking of trying the local newspaper...usued to work for them in a way when I was a kid, but I have more experiance now. fingers crossed. And Im also going to lounge around in my pj's....because I can! Drink lots of blackcurrent tea and cook a huge dinner for when the bloke im livin with gets in from work. I
cooking! gonna go start prepare it now.
The positive outlook angle is only a couple of days old,so i hope i can keep it up! " bugger everytime i end a sentance it sounds like it came from a carry on film!"
You think it scares the shit out of you stoned i'm thinking it straight
Anyway i'm off for a bit of cooking myself,so take care, and talk soon
i try to be gentle. but fuck that, hahah.