recoveringmale

So much time goes by, and still no change. When is this shift going to happen? When does life begin? When when when? What cognitive leap is necessary to take me from knowing all that I ought to do to simply being thus? So much energy and preoccupation about said change, and yet, I might take it to my grave if I don't make a decision. If I don't start thinking about what I want for my life (thinking in general, actually), Observing the world. Questioning assumptions. Living.

I obviously have not been paying attention.



In other news, something extraordinary happened today. I ran into someone, an acquaintance from years ago, from my past life at Evergreen. She'd moved to Portland since then, and still was in touch with some of the mutual friends we had, who I'd long since lost touch with. Their emails became defunct at some point, and I'd given up hope of ever seeing them again. I have had recurring dreams in which I saw them, after long absence; the joyful embrace of being reunited again, only to wake up each time alone, with no way of contacting them. Now, by luck or chance, fate has seen fit to allow them back into my life, due simply to this girl walking into my work on a day I happened to be there, and knowing how to reach them.

It is a small world after all, my friends.