I should update more often. Most times I don't feel like I have much worth saying though, and that an increase in journal updates would lessen the chance that any of them would be read. But then, does it really matter?
Went to Dante's the other night. Something about crossing the river always puts me in a bad mood, I don't know why... but I...
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Went to Dante's the other night. Something about crossing the river always puts me in a bad mood, I don't know why... but I...
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morgan:
yay strongbad quote!
hansel:
It's a 90% odds that I will be missing out on pirate this week.. Maybe next week as well. But, you know.. the show is two thursdays away.. So even if I forget, I can just pop over to my apt and make a copy. I live eight blocks away. 
I never really had a problem
because of leaving
but everything reminds me of her
this evening
so if I seem a little out of it, sorry
but why should I lie?
everything reminds me of her
the spin of the earth impaled a silhouette of the sun on the steeple
and I gotta hear the same sermon all the time now from you people...
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because of leaving
but everything reminds me of her
this evening
so if I seem a little out of it, sorry
but why should I lie?
everything reminds me of her
the spin of the earth impaled a silhouette of the sun on the steeple
and I gotta hear the same sermon all the time now from you people...
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hippomonki:
hey you groovy kid, it was nice actually talking to you tonight, i hope to hang out more with you in the not so distant futuire 
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hansel:
Leslie Nielsen?
I have never felt as alone as I do now.
I sleep in as late as I can, and then my thoughts start creeping back in and I can't sleep anymore.
I was completely useless at work. I kept going to the bathroom on my breaks to cry for short, 2-minute spurts, then wipe my eyes and go back to service with a smile.
Rain...
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london:
im sorry- I hope you feel better sooner than later. dont forget what I said about time..... it only seems long it will go by fast.
kengineer:
Dood!!! You're getting sympathy from all the hotties!!!
Years back, seven days after my live-in girlfriend had moved out, I was dropping a package off at Federal Express, when the girl behind the counter apologized for being so spaced out. "I'm sorry" she said "But I'm having the worst day of my life."
"Don't worry" I replied "The worst day of my life was last week, and my appetite is already coming back."
So, yeah . . .
Years back, seven days after my live-in girlfriend had moved out, I was dropping a package off at Federal Express, when the girl behind the counter apologized for being so spaced out. "I'm sorry" she said "But I'm having the worst day of my life."
"Don't worry" I replied "The worst day of my life was last week, and my appetite is already coming back."
So, yeah . . .
Woah! Guess it's been a while... sorry about that, Compy... Need to get some N-dust...
I am 24 today. All I can really think is, what the hell did I do all year? Let's see, I moved to a new town, worked as a street canvasser for OSPIRG (bad), a telemarketer (worse), and finally settled into the positon of coffeehouse slave. This past year saw...
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I am 24 today. All I can really think is, what the hell did I do all year? Let's see, I moved to a new town, worked as a street canvasser for OSPIRG (bad), a telemarketer (worse), and finally settled into the positon of coffeehouse slave. This past year saw...
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valen:
Glad to see an update from you. I was beginning to wonder if you were still around. I don't know what it is about turning 24, but it sure brings up all of those feelings you are describing.
babyblue:
Dude, we missed your birthday? That's no good. You and hansel are like one day apart. Twas good to see you last night.
After a couple days of trying to get a hold of him, I finally reached my old friend James. 4 years since we last spoke. Ive had recurring dreams where we would meet again, sometimes in joyful embrace, sometimes in bitter indifference. After a while I never expected to see him again. When I finally got him on the phone tonight he was very much...
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niobe:
happy birthday.
hansel:
mmm.. perfect from now on.. it's so good when it hits your mouth. A lot like a pabst come to think of it..
happy birthday.
happy birthday.
I am obsessively listening to the orginal cast recording of Hedwig and the Angry Inch. The weather is wonderfully gloomy today. My eyes are thankful for fresh contacts. Reading my friend Jeff's journal is inspiring me to get off my lazy ass. Too often I've read it and simply admired him, and lived vicariously through his unwavering and determined pursuit of his dreams, however...
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flannery:
thanks for the help
lotus:
Neverwhere. my favorite book of all time. I'm reading it again for the 10th or 11th time right now. No joke.
So much time goes by, and still no change. When is this shift going to happen? When does life begin? When when when? What cognitive leap is necessary to take me from knowing all that I ought to do to simply being thus? So much energy and preoccupation about said change, and yet, I might take it to my grave if I don't make a...
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I had the most wonderful day today. Worked at 5 am, and it went well right up until I was about to leave, when another encounter with my bitchy supervisor brought me down rather hard. When I got to Rains house I was well on my way to being depressed and pissed and generally unhappy, fearing that work had ruined my mood for the perfect...
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starisea:
Yay for wonderful days! You deserve them, sweetpea. 
bwahahahahaha! Cat vacuumer! I love you!
bwahahahahaha! Cat vacuumer! I love you!
Doing sketches. I opened the window because the air smells so lovely after the rain. I wish my desk were next to the window. I am wondering if perhaps some of my creative hindrances come from attempting to work in mediums that I am not really comfortable with, so I am experimenting with a bit of visual storyboarding, if you will, to see how it...
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I am sitting here amidst boxes of books, listening to Pink Moon as I begin packing my life up once again, preparing to move to a new place. The past few days have been marked with change all around; looking to find a new job (shying away from anything that requires me to get up at 4 am), moving, and finally beginning to do some...
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Hmmm. Under my occupation it reads "writer." This should indicate a comfort with writing things down, a relative ease in the act of composing fanciful tales and a joy in the freedom of the empty page, waiting for my words. The reality is more along the lines of "procrastinating self-sabotaging impossibly stubborn elitist snob. who does not write at all, thank you very much." That...
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morgan:
Thank you for the link to the book!
Edited because I found the entry more or less trite. It was a hectic day, with the brief flash of light when I had afternoon tea with starisea. We talked of Neil Gaiman and procrastination and taoism and many other things. Nervous at first, but soon I eased into myself a bit and hopefully was not too awkward. Shy about meeting new people. I...
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cureelise:
omg i have soooo much to catch u up on. i had a very very good doctors visit and i should be pregant again really soon i'm soooo excited and my spirits are very high at the moment
i'm soooo excited and my spirits are very high at the moment
starisea:
We should totally get together for Power Puffs and hang time. I can't wait to meet Rain. She sounds so cool and sweet and she and Solon (like the ancient Greek philosopher) could talk computer talk. Teehee! We will have to work on setting something up. If not sooner, then after the SG BBQ.
*huggle*
*huggle*