recidivi5t

i stayed up till frigggin 830 this morning recording crap on my computer. i just couldn't sleep. i didn't take a nap all day, was active, etc, but i'm still not tired. and now my roomates are heading off to bed and i don't know what to do. i've been working on muzak all day, and in a way, i know that if i pick up an instrument i will be up all night again so that's out of the question. my girlfriend got the dvd when we split up, and my roomates and i are in the middle of doing a big room shift that prevents me from using dvd player on my computer right now...it's sitting on a dresser and woul;dn't be comfy to watch.

the only vcr movies lying around the place are that "transformers" cartoon movie from the 80s where they say "shit" and actually die, and a tape called "75 years of Providence College Basketball".

I can't watch TV...the commercials really drive me crazy.

i've been so restless since i got off the meds.

what's a nice way to get sleepy? warm milk? i need a good book to read. i'm reading "shakey" the neil young bio and it's ok but i'm really more into fiction i think. i gotta go to the library to get something good. i guess i'll jot some shit in my real journal and then do some heavy breathing or something and hope i can drift off...