Barbie Dream House Christmas
This year...there's little girls out there that are having the best christmas ever... " Did you know the newest version of barbies' Crib' has a Fuckin running toliet! - I got Pictures!!! " - A rather drunk Maryanne informed me at The Two Parrots when I stopped in at the bar for last call . She went on to tell me that her BF passed the " Parent Test" at Dinner and even her 4 year old niece was totally into him. Cheering him instead of her at the table and wanting to show him her room. " She blushed when I called her on it," Maryanne went on... " it was so cute!... But, I'm over it"
I wonder if my sister Carolyn ever had a best Christmas... When I last spoke to my parents, they say they haven't heard from her yet. This could mean 2 different things. She's on a bender with her BF and will end up somewhere. Or she feels so bad about where she is, and all she's lost.. ran off that she's going to have an even worse bender tomorrow. Me? how I cope?.... I try to remember my sister before she was 14. When she was tall, tan and fit. Ran in track and field and didn't hang with the older guys on the motorbikes who hung around the school. Selling drugs to the losers, to pay for the shiney Harleys and their colours.
I hope she had one good Christmas back before then, and remembers what it was like. I wish I could remember a good Christmas with her then.... The good ones now, are the ones she shows up at ( probably hung over - or straight and trying to stay on her meds ) and stays for a bit before going to bed, this has been the trend for the past few years unless she's in the TB ward. Where they keep her healthy and on her meds and visiting her on the day is very bitter-sweet. The bad ones, they used to involve ambulances or the police. Thankfully they don't happen anymore but, I sense one day they might return one more time.
This morning? I still don't know if she'll even show... If she does what state she's going to be in and, what reaction my Niece will have. So, I pray my niece has good Christmas's - has good fun and cheer. And I always get her what she wants... or something she'll like. My Brother got so fed up with it all....I guess it was one of the reasons he moved to germany ( with his pretty new GF )
Liam, my new Nephew in East Berlin is having his first Christmas ever....I understand my Brother misses us and sent presents to my parents place for us... even for Carolyn. All the wrapping has photos of Liam on it. Me? I feel bad because with this awful show and all the union issues that ate up the last week over it I barely got presents for my close family, and nearly lost them in my travels. And, I completely forgot about my new German extended family.
I'm planning to visit Berlin in the new year after The Olympics is over... Maybe some time in May when there's an industrial festival in Leipzig. I will give me an excuse to not work," Buddy Holly" Especially with Lion King comming in July. Right now I wish I could find a second gig so that I never work for ACT again. I gave in my last notes a few weeks back on this one.. They want to remount it. I guess I'll be trying to find something else, work wise for Christmas next year too. Maybe I should go to New York then....
After all of the above, things were the best that they've been in a while. My sister was in real good spirits. And it look like she was sticking to doctors orders from last winter and trying to look after her health. Heather spoilt her with lots of clothes.. I got her a robe and little joke gift. The presents from my brother in Berlin and photos of his new baby son made her cry. Most of all it was so good to see my sister just being Mother and friend to my niece, her Daughter. And I let go relaxed and enjoyed them both playing Wii golf and tennis together and was thankful of it not getting all heavy.. or devolving into arguments.
I'd like to think that her stay in the hospital for 6 months over the holidays last year had some sort of lasting affect on her. That she was thinking and finally acting about working towards a real quality future with the people she loves and who love her. To me, her gift is her... and one more good memory of my little sister.
Merry Christmas
This year...there's little girls out there that are having the best christmas ever... " Did you know the newest version of barbies' Crib' has a Fuckin running toliet! - I got Pictures!!! " - A rather drunk Maryanne informed me at The Two Parrots when I stopped in at the bar for last call . She went on to tell me that her BF passed the " Parent Test" at Dinner and even her 4 year old niece was totally into him. Cheering him instead of her at the table and wanting to show him her room. " She blushed when I called her on it," Maryanne went on... " it was so cute!... But, I'm over it"
I wonder if my sister Carolyn ever had a best Christmas... When I last spoke to my parents, they say they haven't heard from her yet. This could mean 2 different things. She's on a bender with her BF and will end up somewhere. Or she feels so bad about where she is, and all she's lost.. ran off that she's going to have an even worse bender tomorrow. Me? how I cope?.... I try to remember my sister before she was 14. When she was tall, tan and fit. Ran in track and field and didn't hang with the older guys on the motorbikes who hung around the school. Selling drugs to the losers, to pay for the shiney Harleys and their colours.
I hope she had one good Christmas back before then, and remembers what it was like. I wish I could remember a good Christmas with her then.... The good ones now, are the ones she shows up at ( probably hung over - or straight and trying to stay on her meds ) and stays for a bit before going to bed, this has been the trend for the past few years unless she's in the TB ward. Where they keep her healthy and on her meds and visiting her on the day is very bitter-sweet. The bad ones, they used to involve ambulances or the police. Thankfully they don't happen anymore but, I sense one day they might return one more time.
This morning? I still don't know if she'll even show... If she does what state she's going to be in and, what reaction my Niece will have. So, I pray my niece has good Christmas's - has good fun and cheer. And I always get her what she wants... or something she'll like. My Brother got so fed up with it all....I guess it was one of the reasons he moved to germany ( with his pretty new GF )
Liam, my new Nephew in East Berlin is having his first Christmas ever....I understand my Brother misses us and sent presents to my parents place for us... even for Carolyn. All the wrapping has photos of Liam on it. Me? I feel bad because with this awful show and all the union issues that ate up the last week over it I barely got presents for my close family, and nearly lost them in my travels. And, I completely forgot about my new German extended family.
I'm planning to visit Berlin in the new year after The Olympics is over... Maybe some time in May when there's an industrial festival in Leipzig. I will give me an excuse to not work," Buddy Holly" Especially with Lion King comming in July. Right now I wish I could find a second gig so that I never work for ACT again. I gave in my last notes a few weeks back on this one.. They want to remount it. I guess I'll be trying to find something else, work wise for Christmas next year too. Maybe I should go to New York then....
After all of the above, things were the best that they've been in a while. My sister was in real good spirits. And it look like she was sticking to doctors orders from last winter and trying to look after her health. Heather spoilt her with lots of clothes.. I got her a robe and little joke gift. The presents from my brother in Berlin and photos of his new baby son made her cry. Most of all it was so good to see my sister just being Mother and friend to my niece, her Daughter. And I let go relaxed and enjoyed them both playing Wii golf and tennis together and was thankful of it not getting all heavy.. or devolving into arguments.
I'd like to think that her stay in the hospital for 6 months over the holidays last year had some sort of lasting affect on her. That she was thinking and finally acting about working towards a real quality future with the people she loves and who love her. To me, her gift is her... and one more good memory of my little sister.
Merry Christmas
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