realistic67

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I went to my first Burner party... Probably my last... I expected to be offered E or something.. That never happened. Maybe because it was at a licensed event location that wasn't in the cards. ( I've never been a fan of E ... it's never made me feel open or outgoing... the few times I've tried it I get a bit of a fuzzy feeling... and then I go straight to personal Paranoia at a height that makes any weird feeling from pot...well...nothing )

Maybe I was tired. I'd been driving my friend luis all around the GVRD so that he could find a new Rav. After 4 luis invited me to this Burner party ( where he was going to meet up with some new girl who he'd chatted up. ) ... And told me how open everyone was..

So I went. Problem is in any new venue I'm sad to say I'm not very open. It's not my space.... As I know nobody... and the one person who takes me there sadly, never introduced me to anyone who he knew... So...Well, as soon as the Douche-bag Quotient increased ( as non policed gigs often do. ) I pulled back. As usual... I wall-flowered. Mostly out of insecurity, self consciousness. Something I do too much during moments like that... And probably think about too much, after the fact..

But, I couldn't help wonder..... And it kind of bothers me... I'd driven all over hells half acre helping him out. being there while he tested SUV's. SO... Why not introduce me to your friends? Isn't that a friendly thing? They even went off to smoke Pot and luis never invited me...And...I think too much and wonder why...