Praying for the next wave....
My momentary skill with women has come to an end again....I was doing so well. Admittedly it was the power of Madonna's tech rider that was bouying my sexual energy. I was so scared of not having enough people that I was chatting up everyone I could think of in bars and clubs about the Show and a possible need for crew.
( Goths and rockers love backstage stuff and they own steel toes... ) But, now we're hunkering down into livenation Pro. meetings and calling steel crew for the prestagingSo far it looks like the recession and the fact that it's the biggest show this season. I'm swamped with crew, as the Members are taking every day we can call out.
Thankfully I never promised any work, just that there's a good chance I'll be calling. That all I said. There will be a bit of calling of permits... And I know that if there's an emergency call I have huge list of crew chomping at the bit, to throw at anything. That makes me feel better. I even feel bad when I call a bunch of guys for a replacement steel crew and the permits don't call back fast enough to take the work. But, you snooze... you lose.
I go through girl waves all the time...one day I'm all flirty and chatty and i have a druken adventure with some sad vomiting girl. And then it's tumble weeds...Especially when I am really attracted to some woman.
I even realise I must be wierding them out. ( as hear women talk about the guys who don't say anything as weirdos... I hate feeling that they're talking about me like that. ) So, I stop going to that coffee shop or that bar for a while. I just get transfixed by how lovely they are and I like to look at women because... well.. it's safe....
Women only hurt me when I chat them up or get to know them. Checking them out never hurts. I just wish there was a way I could turn being flirty on and off like a switch. without thinking. But, I've never been able to do that. I've even read all those PUA web sites for ideas. But, it's very creepy. I want to be genuine.
But.....
Every now and then a woman just has this ability by just being. That pushes me right back into the feeling like it's that silent geek world in Highschool. Thease days it's usually the dark, Angry Rocker / punk girls who affect me like that. The ones that, in my HS days hung out in the smoking hole, or their BF muscle car. The ones who drew daemons and vampires on thier notebooks in class if they wern't skipping. And, played with their long hair. I can get totally lost, now looking at that type of girl.
Nowadays she's the waitress or bartender at the punk bar/pub. Or the hot burlesque dancer. But, I never grow up. I mean here I am about to start calling, and crew chiefing this huge show. The biggest one of the season. It's Madonna's world tour for christ sakes, comming to town.
And I still think of myself as that nerdy kid with coke bottle glasses, that has no chance and nothing to say...And when I finally do, I still have no conviction. And, more importantly, the loud drunken guy gets there first....
Or when I'm working I don't even notice the hot girls. I totally write them off as the backstage pass girls ( the lowest on the pecking order backstage... ) the groupies. And the women techs I work with are well, work friends. Usually older or if even remotely attractive and around my age. Very taken by some artsy guy, musican or someone else....
In my next life I want to come back as a really hot looking, Tattoed musician... one with drug and women issues. That would be fair.
My momentary skill with women has come to an end again....I was doing so well. Admittedly it was the power of Madonna's tech rider that was bouying my sexual energy. I was so scared of not having enough people that I was chatting up everyone I could think of in bars and clubs about the Show and a possible need for crew.
( Goths and rockers love backstage stuff and they own steel toes... ) But, now we're hunkering down into livenation Pro. meetings and calling steel crew for the prestagingSo far it looks like the recession and the fact that it's the biggest show this season. I'm swamped with crew, as the Members are taking every day we can call out.
Thankfully I never promised any work, just that there's a good chance I'll be calling. That all I said. There will be a bit of calling of permits... And I know that if there's an emergency call I have huge list of crew chomping at the bit, to throw at anything. That makes me feel better. I even feel bad when I call a bunch of guys for a replacement steel crew and the permits don't call back fast enough to take the work. But, you snooze... you lose.
I go through girl waves all the time...one day I'm all flirty and chatty and i have a druken adventure with some sad vomiting girl. And then it's tumble weeds...Especially when I am really attracted to some woman.
I even realise I must be wierding them out. ( as hear women talk about the guys who don't say anything as weirdos... I hate feeling that they're talking about me like that. ) So, I stop going to that coffee shop or that bar for a while. I just get transfixed by how lovely they are and I like to look at women because... well.. it's safe....
Women only hurt me when I chat them up or get to know them. Checking them out never hurts. I just wish there was a way I could turn being flirty on and off like a switch. without thinking. But, I've never been able to do that. I've even read all those PUA web sites for ideas. But, it's very creepy. I want to be genuine.
But.....
Every now and then a woman just has this ability by just being. That pushes me right back into the feeling like it's that silent geek world in Highschool. Thease days it's usually the dark, Angry Rocker / punk girls who affect me like that. The ones that, in my HS days hung out in the smoking hole, or their BF muscle car. The ones who drew daemons and vampires on thier notebooks in class if they wern't skipping. And, played with their long hair. I can get totally lost, now looking at that type of girl.
Nowadays she's the waitress or bartender at the punk bar/pub. Or the hot burlesque dancer. But, I never grow up. I mean here I am about to start calling, and crew chiefing this huge show. The biggest one of the season. It's Madonna's world tour for christ sakes, comming to town.
And I still think of myself as that nerdy kid with coke bottle glasses, that has no chance and nothing to say...And when I finally do, I still have no conviction. And, more importantly, the loud drunken guy gets there first....
Or when I'm working I don't even notice the hot girls. I totally write them off as the backstage pass girls ( the lowest on the pecking order backstage... ) the groupies. And the women techs I work with are well, work friends. Usually older or if even remotely attractive and around my age. Very taken by some artsy guy, musican or someone else....
In my next life I want to come back as a really hot looking, Tattoed musician... one with drug and women issues. That would be fair.
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I aways meet girls a month or two from completing a job, right about the time I'm about to move to the next one. It never fails.
Reverse sexism would have me featuring steroid enhanced bodybuilders, however, the type of model favoured by conventional male mags like Playgirl, and so to feature everyday boys who aren't models, from the very skinny (naturally so) to the big and buff and all manners of soft and hairy in between, I'd like to break down stereotypes of what is considered handsome for men.