Mamma Mia...Here we go again
Things were going good...Foo Fighters last week. Mamma Mia this week. A quick orgy of work. Focusing lights and running truss spot. And in the last few shows the AE's have been giving me mini crews of senior guys to start and finish projects. It's like they're grooming me for department head calls. Which is the offshoot of putting together the FE course at BCIT.
There's a few of the old guard, the ones who are walking wounded. Working thru their retirement now that the sinking stock market has taken their investments to the basement with it. And a few of the really lazy ones who have no passion for the work anymore. Who really do work like their hired from the neck down. They seem to resent being told what to do by me. Or even if they're not on my mini crew. They have ovious complaints they're not offering up, about how I do my work. Instead getting all angry. And quite frankly, it's pissing me off. Got an issue? confront me.
For years I've listened to them, and even made it sound like solutions I've come up when working with them are really theirs. Been polite and cow towed to them first. Meanwhile I climb the truss, focus the lights, run the spots. While they chill out in the crew room, stuffing their faces with munchies provided by the promoter, "Shadowing" at a higher rate than me, the real road /show crew. And get all up at me when I stop for a minute to take a break. Or have issue when the shows road guy wants to keep me on to finish the work ( Which they can't..so they keep everyone that extra day or hour so the designer can have a focus crew with me on it. - So thease guys get extra work on my back. )
One of them even went verbally postal on me while I stopped to tell the new permits where to get tax forms and where to pick up checks at the end of the week. And this guy is the worst offender when it comes to avoiding work. I refuse to let them beat me down into not caring. But, I can't find it in me to talk back to thease old guys being unfair with me. As I'm locked into the seniority system like they are.
So, I act out against others outside of my work world. Which is avoiding the issue on my own part. I've been short with my roommate. Taking on management of another theatre about their faulty man lift ( someone there has disabled safety mechanisms on it so that it can ascend without locked in legs and level. ) And the worse - drunk, I sent a nasty reply to an X over facebook. After flirting with an even drunker woman who was up here in Vancouver for a bit of partying behind her Seattle husbands back. All of which is really uncalled for.
But. I'm really in a F.U. mode right now. I need a long run. I can't wait for The Producers to start up in May. Get back behind a daily Follow-spot call. Point a light at a pretty girl. Really help make a cathartic release for me and an audience. be part of a progressive community. And get away from boredom and thinking about people who hurt me. Or are somehow hurt by me.
Things were going good...Foo Fighters last week. Mamma Mia this week. A quick orgy of work. Focusing lights and running truss spot. And in the last few shows the AE's have been giving me mini crews of senior guys to start and finish projects. It's like they're grooming me for department head calls. Which is the offshoot of putting together the FE course at BCIT.
There's a few of the old guard, the ones who are walking wounded. Working thru their retirement now that the sinking stock market has taken their investments to the basement with it. And a few of the really lazy ones who have no passion for the work anymore. Who really do work like their hired from the neck down. They seem to resent being told what to do by me. Or even if they're not on my mini crew. They have ovious complaints they're not offering up, about how I do my work. Instead getting all angry. And quite frankly, it's pissing me off. Got an issue? confront me.
For years I've listened to them, and even made it sound like solutions I've come up when working with them are really theirs. Been polite and cow towed to them first. Meanwhile I climb the truss, focus the lights, run the spots. While they chill out in the crew room, stuffing their faces with munchies provided by the promoter, "Shadowing" at a higher rate than me, the real road /show crew. And get all up at me when I stop for a minute to take a break. Or have issue when the shows road guy wants to keep me on to finish the work ( Which they can't..so they keep everyone that extra day or hour so the designer can have a focus crew with me on it. - So thease guys get extra work on my back. )
One of them even went verbally postal on me while I stopped to tell the new permits where to get tax forms and where to pick up checks at the end of the week. And this guy is the worst offender when it comes to avoiding work. I refuse to let them beat me down into not caring. But, I can't find it in me to talk back to thease old guys being unfair with me. As I'm locked into the seniority system like they are.
So, I act out against others outside of my work world. Which is avoiding the issue on my own part. I've been short with my roommate. Taking on management of another theatre about their faulty man lift ( someone there has disabled safety mechanisms on it so that it can ascend without locked in legs and level. ) And the worse - drunk, I sent a nasty reply to an X over facebook. After flirting with an even drunker woman who was up here in Vancouver for a bit of partying behind her Seattle husbands back. All of which is really uncalled for.
But. I'm really in a F.U. mode right now. I need a long run. I can't wait for The Producers to start up in May. Get back behind a daily Follow-spot call. Point a light at a pretty girl. Really help make a cathartic release for me and an audience. be part of a progressive community. And get away from boredom and thinking about people who hurt me. Or are somehow hurt by me.