A weird feeling has been creeping over me over the last 2 weeks. A strange feeling I'm not used to, most defintely not consistently. I think you people might call it happiness? 
I have a job I enjoy going to which challenges my brain. I work with people who I can have a laugh with and are so laid back they are almost vertical. I have flexi-time and I get paid not greatly but enough to get by (I hope!)
I have a gym in my work and I go every day before work. This does mean getting up early which is not fun but it starts every day with endorphins flowing and a sense of achievement. My half hor cardio every morning is getting easier and I'm able to do more situps and pushups than ever before. My percentage body fat is also slowly declining as is the size of my spare tire!
I am moving in with one of my best friends to an apartment which is rather nice and located in the home of Spaced. Two tubes stops to Camden and 22 mins to work. Sweetah!
I have a man who loves me very deeply and I have never felt so loved in my entire life despite the fact he is in Vancouver and I am in London. This doesn't make me sad because I feel lucky I was able to meet him at all and I know this time next year we will be together all the time and not for like 6 weeks out of the year!
To the best of my knowledge I am pretty healthy and I feel so much better for regularly exercising and eating a bit better!
I am getting to do cool things in London, checking out the weird and wonderful and there is so much to do for free!
I am getting to go to amazing wrestling training every week and consistently improving. I get to go help out at shows and hang out with wrestling people and it makes me so happy. Cept for not getting to sleep in on Sunday mornings hehe! I don't even care I have to give up late saturday nights out on the piss becaue wrestling makes me so happy!
And I have accepted my past. For the last 7/8 years I have constantly been depressed about my past and felt that it was destroying my life. Now I say fuck it. it happened and it shaped the person I am and I'm not going to make memories of things I can't change affect my life anymore. I accpet the things that have happened and move on. There is so much more to life! Obviously it wasn't quite this simple but its happened now and it feels good.
Now all that is really missing is seeing my lovely friends more. I'm hoping once I have moved I will see people and the world will be right.
I have found a balance that I never thought I could. Who knows how long it will last but I will enjoy every minute of it will it does.
Love to you all!
I have a job I enjoy going to which challenges my brain. I work with people who I can have a laugh with and are so laid back they are almost vertical. I have flexi-time and I get paid not greatly but enough to get by (I hope!)
I have a gym in my work and I go every day before work. This does mean getting up early which is not fun but it starts every day with endorphins flowing and a sense of achievement. My half hor cardio every morning is getting easier and I'm able to do more situps and pushups than ever before. My percentage body fat is also slowly declining as is the size of my spare tire!
I am moving in with one of my best friends to an apartment which is rather nice and located in the home of Spaced. Two tubes stops to Camden and 22 mins to work. Sweetah!
I have a man who loves me very deeply and I have never felt so loved in my entire life despite the fact he is in Vancouver and I am in London. This doesn't make me sad because I feel lucky I was able to meet him at all and I know this time next year we will be together all the time and not for like 6 weeks out of the year!
To the best of my knowledge I am pretty healthy and I feel so much better for regularly exercising and eating a bit better!
I am getting to do cool things in London, checking out the weird and wonderful and there is so much to do for free!
I am getting to go to amazing wrestling training every week and consistently improving. I get to go help out at shows and hang out with wrestling people and it makes me so happy. Cept for not getting to sleep in on Sunday mornings hehe! I don't even care I have to give up late saturday nights out on the piss becaue wrestling makes me so happy!
And I have accepted my past. For the last 7/8 years I have constantly been depressed about my past and felt that it was destroying my life. Now I say fuck it. it happened and it shaped the person I am and I'm not going to make memories of things I can't change affect my life anymore. I accpet the things that have happened and move on. There is so much more to life! Obviously it wasn't quite this simple but its happened now and it feels good.
Now all that is really missing is seeing my lovely friends more. I'm hoping once I have moved I will see people and the world will be right.
I have found a balance that I never thought I could. Who knows how long it will last but I will enjoy every minute of it will it does.
Love to you all!
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strawberrybomb:
Haha awesome. If they still have tickets left tomorrow then I shall buy them. You can meet people I work with as loads of them seem to be going too
burntsolace:
wooohooo!