I can feel Depression slowly coming back to me. The fear of rejection pushes me further against the gun. I feel it's cold salvation pushing against my head. But I still don't have the strength to pull the trigger. All I can do is drown into my tears while I search for the power to end all this. I'm just an empty shell now, all that was me is now gone. I don't want to feel anymore, emotion is the fuel of my pain. As I see her smile, I see myself die. Cause I know that she's happy without me. All I hear now are old love songs tellimg me that love isn't real, I can't tell if it is or not since I've never felt it's warm embrace. All I know is pain, and it's as real as anything can be.
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