Just came home, still fucking drunk, can't remember much of the night except maybe the part where the woman i love is so far yet so close to me. I just don't know how to act she drives me fucking crazy, I love her so much but one of my friends who is one of her best friends told me that she doesn't want a boyfriend right now and I'm so scared of being rejected again that I can't tell her how I feel 
And then again the alcool helps me think how the world would be a better place without me.
And then again the alcool helps me think how the world would be a better place without me.
Maybe she doesn't want to get hurt either so she is telling people and herself that she doesn't want a boyfriend.
And maybe she really does like you but she doesn't know how you feel! You never know until you give it a try!
Besides, you have us to fall back on if things go bad!