I fasted for a day, not really for any particular reason other than the fact that this check I deposited took a really long time to clear, and I was so low on gas that my light was on, so I couldn't drive to the grocery store or a restaurant, and even if I had been able to, I didn't have enough money. So I...
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What a delightful and interesting couple of days. Last night, after my housemate decided that she would rather not take me up on my offer to fool around, I got trashed in the kitchen with two of my other housemates and discovered, upon stumbling back to my room late into the night, that there was a message for me, calling me in to work tonight...
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So I've noticed something: every time I make a new journal entry, three people comment on it, and then no more until I make another. It's not that this isn't enough commentary: three is, by far, more than I was getting year ago. It's just something about this constant number being the case that bothers me. So, for this entry, I request that no less...
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nementh:
Some of us are going to Disneyland on Sunday, you should come out.
razorshimmy:
Woohoo! Aaaand, done. Now I can make another journal entry. Later.
I'm watching Brick.
Any of you see that movie? I don't know how it applies to anyone else, but my favorite thing about it, besides the shooting and the clever writing and how it all ties together, is that it really makes you (me) remember what it was like to be in high school. How you think that stage in your life is the big,...
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Any of you see that movie? I don't know how it applies to anyone else, but my favorite thing about it, besides the shooting and the clever writing and how it all ties together, is that it really makes you (me) remember what it was like to be in high school. How you think that stage in your life is the big,...
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delacroix:
I really liked Brick for the same reasons. Good choice.
Brick reminds me of Primer, which is a similarly well constructed, low budget movie.
Brick reminds me of Primer, which is a similarly well constructed, low budget movie.
thisbe:
That's a very pretty journal entry. I very much like it. 
I won't lie: I believe in destiny.
Yeah, sure, I also believe in free will. I think that there's this path that many people are given the opportunity to follow, maybe even most people, and I think that almost all of them turn away from it, in varying degrees. Some do so intentionally, and lie to themselves about it afterwards, some do so in small...
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Yeah, sure, I also believe in free will. I think that there's this path that many people are given the opportunity to follow, maybe even most people, and I think that almost all of them turn away from it, in varying degrees. Some do so intentionally, and lie to themselves about it afterwards, some do so in small...
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cedar:
Very well said. You have a very evocative thought process. And thanks for the reminder. I think I tend to forget just how important and beautiful those details are to me.
jormagund:
My mother's side of the family is Italian. I have a lot of specific issues with Catholicism. But when I get into it, I tend to offend. Suffice to say I think it's a joke. I tend to keep my mouth shut at family events when the topic comes up in any way.
But I don't give a shit what other people believe, so long as it doesn't impact my own life. I think there are lots of great by-products of faith, there are just as many or more atrocities.
But I don't give a shit what other people believe, so long as it doesn't impact my own life. I think there are lots of great by-products of faith, there are just as many or more atrocities.
Okay, alright, fine, I'll replace the previous post, at the behest of a few folks kind enough to mention that my whinging is unnecessary, and replace it with a post explaining that putting seven or eight chili peppers into a soup meant for one person, when the recipe calls for two, might seem like a brilliant idea, but... no, you know what, it is brilliant....
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m0ngrel:
man i'm SO addicted to hot peppers right now
i'm gonna grow several types of chilis this summer
definitely more than i can eat, so there'll be sharing going on fo sho
i'm gonna grow several types of chilis this summer
definitely more than i can eat, so there'll be sharing going on fo sho
perfectequation:
Hot.
literallyyyy.
okay, i'm not awake. forgive my cheesiness.
literallyyyy.
okay, i'm not awake. forgive my cheesiness.
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Okay, so, I gotta say it, I'm super tired of being lonely. And I'm very, very lonely. All my best friends out here are with their perfect mate, and it's great, and I really, swear-to-gods am happy for them, but I still get the glass-shard guts when I"m sitting around stewing in third-wheel oil while they cuddle and...
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Okay, so, I gotta say it, I'm super tired of being lonely. And I'm very, very lonely. All my best friends out here are with their perfect mate, and it's great, and I really, swear-to-gods am happy for them, but I still get the glass-shard guts when I"m sitting around stewing in third-wheel oil while they cuddle and...
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Okay, whoosh, deep breath. Feeling better. Got some applications, and, thanks to Cedar, (thank you very much dear) got some leads on possible work. Also signed up to take the CBEST, which, in the future, may mean I can substitute teach, which'll be nice, as a decent sub makes much better scratch than my security job. We'll see, we'll see...
m0ngrel:
woot
Godsdammit, seriously, this is re-fucking-diculous.
I have so little money in the bank, and what's there is gone in seconds, a job that pays 13$ an hour and only gets me work a maximum of three nights a week, some considerable debt, and now I find out I can't even substitute teach for at least two and a half months?
I'm lonely, bored, broke, depressed,...
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I have so little money in the bank, and what's there is gone in seconds, a job that pays 13$ an hour and only gets me work a maximum of three nights a week, some considerable debt, and now I find out I can't even substitute teach for at least two and a half months?
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m0ngrel:
whenever i'm broke i like to spend time at Borders or Barns n Noble reading books
maybe get a small reg coffee, stumble through the isles keeping to m'self
maybe sit and write lists for a while
lots of people doing the same thing... makes it a lil less like i'm alone
then to save money on food
get fixins for a giant pot of chili and then bag it up into individual servings and freeze em for lunches
(i got a really good 'cheap' recipe too
maybe get a small reg coffee, stumble through the isles keeping to m'self
maybe sit and write lists for a while
lots of people doing the same thing... makes it a lil less like i'm alone
then to save money on food
get fixins for a giant pot of chili and then bag it up into individual servings and freeze em for lunches
(i got a really good 'cheap' recipe too
chin up
i've been there/here before
often times a full warm belly and a good book is a great way to chase off the blues
Wow, well, had most of the week off from work. I would say this was fun, but I still need to be making money, so I really need to find some other places that need security. My manager has been pretty slow getting me the numbers he mentioned, so I've gotta start hunting some of them down myself. Maybe tonight I can get him to...
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thisbe:
Yeah... nothing like a $150 paycheck to motivate a job hunt. 
cedar:
I will pray that you DO achieve this said state of "mostly red meat". I think it might be some key to the Universe we haven't explored yet.
I could probably use to do that!
But I'm not sure if I have the discipline.
cept i've been getting the 6packs of ensure drink for 7bucks, thats 7 means eh?