I really sad today. I just found out that a friend of mine and my man's died this week. It is so tragic, he was only 28 yrs. old, and he had just gotten married less than 6 months ago. I feel horrid again today, partly the cold, partly not enough sleep and then bam, I have to read the paper to find out about Toby. WOW! It's just unbellieveable. I'm lighting a candle in my window tonight for him, partly in remembrance. I am just totally overwhelmed with grief. I can't stop thinking about it and it's keeping me awake. I'm also really worried about my boyfriend. I don't think he knows yet and I'm certain he will be even more upset than me. I'll blog more when my moodiness dissapates, right now I can only think about Toby and it's starting to sound more like an obituary than a journal entry. Laters! 
~cheers