I wish I didnt hate myself so much. I also wish ppl didnt make it worse. I wonder if he really thinks im beautiful or if he just says it because he knows its what i want to hear. Why am i so paronoid? Why cant i just trust? Oh yeah i remember! Maybe its because my whole life i have been fucked over by ppl i trust. 
try a new start?
im sure he thinks youre beautiful....
and then some.