razorblade

Why is it that even though I know he is bad for me i cant tear myself away
Why do i miss him when he is not around even though he doesn't spend time with me when he is
Why do i bend over backwards for him and yet he does nothing for me.
Why can he go out with his friends but i cant go out with mine
I am only there to be his waitress, maid, and sex object. So, why do I stay.
Honestly I don't understand it. I have never been the kind of girl to let a guy run over me like this but for some reason. I let him. I hate this. Im such a strong person with so many goal and ambitions and yet I am letting him rule and ruin my life. Why can't i make it stop. I need someone to come sweep me off my feet and make me forget about him.