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i'm not sure if this journal entry means you're feeling better or not?
maybe you need a new pair of shoes too.
they sure have made me smile for the past 2 days.
plus - - - BJORK!! i can hardly stand it!

i wouldn't have stood you up for dinner....GET OUT OF THE TUB!!!!!

Do you ever go to the Holiday Lounge on St. Marks? It's the best old guy bar in the world. They usually throw everyone out by 10 PM

Happy 4/20!

That's no fair you put three down.

you're falling apart in my hands...

maybe the glue I provided was only an illusion...

the problems mount, the breakdown continues, although for a few seconds at sunset i was given a relief, i found a bit of shelter, a lil' piece of the moment when every lover ever smiled at me in an ungarded moment, that reassuring feeling that it is not a game or a dream, that there may be some real emotion, these are only memories of moments, though, and they all lead to other moments where the emotion has changed and the moment is painful....i seek shelter from that storm of pain and regret, a break in the weather, i need a reprieve from my self induced sentence, a stay of execution....i am calling on all my will to pull myself through this day, i look to memories of good times to guide out of this dark night and into a better place....i am going to a communal hot tub to meditate and overcome this gripping feeling of doom...this is an hour of strength, all that i can call upon....til i can be here again, my friend....

Good Luck Bro. hope the reaper loses his grip.

I hate doing laundry. It's the worst way to spend a day.

Damnit...there is one more thing. There is a cool jellyfish exhibit at the aquarium. You should come down and see it. While you are there you should look for the cuttlefish next to the giant octopus. Cuttlefish are way cooler than jellyfish...they are smarter too. But only slightly.

hint: If you go to the cuttlefish exhibit you should stay there for quite a bit longer than other exhibits. You will see them change shape, color, and patterns right before your eyes. They are awesome little creatures.

buju at the avalon ballroom...afterhours at jelly's or end-up or dna or something clubby, i don't know, what are you gonna do...got to make some money...

I love sunsets.

Well comedy central and pbs gets me through the tough times.

Don't be too jealous, it was only mediocre sushi.
And as everyone ought to know, mediocre sushi can be worse than no fuckin' sushi at all.

I realized the sad loss of control, overwhelmed me. Every beautiful thing I ever thought I held becoming transparent in an instant. Every valiant effort and good intention corroded with selfish self serving greed. Now I laugh cynically and love partially. It aches when I think of it, so I try not to think.

[Edited on Apr 06, 2003]