razor13

a head cold is after me, i think it might be a weakness brought on by all the climate changes and crowded rooms lately, there was acouple of roadies for buju that were pretty sick, so i could of picked it up at the shows, i hate a cold right at the start of spring, i have to clean my office today, i am trying to scrape enough change together for laundry, i have to move laundry bags around the room so people can sit down, not very conducive to a professional business atmosphere, but wtf else can i do?(oh boy, there is that "rob a bank" idea, it never gives up) didn't uncle bill say"nevr get involved in an argument over religion and never get in the middle of a girl/boy fight" they have unwinnable dynamics to them. i dreamed of hunting feral pig in hawaii last night. some one from the sg site was in my dream. hunting feral pig in hawaii is not the bad thing that it seems, at least not to me anyway, these are a breed of super pig that have come about from domestic pigs brought in from england escaping over the years and going native in such a way that they are causing a great impact on the lil' bit of remaining indigenous jungle and forest and they devastate the self sustanaince crops that the islanders grow, mostly the taro, which is not so good, in fact it is devastating, and there is no way to really eradicate the pigs or humanely remove them, although i realize there is always a way to be humane in the eyes of our more highly developed sisters and bretheren, i am a good killer, so i feel it has fallen on my shoulders to help with hunt, it is the only time i really eat pork, when i have killed and bbqued it myself, huge bbques that feed many families, i like to think i am a concscientious murderer, but we all like to see ourselves in a better light when it comes to eternally damning things, so i will eat some grilled tofu for brunch and continue my contradictory lifestyle to its fullest. i want to go see some music live tonight, but no clue what is going on...maybe there is something in berkeley or closer to oakland, but i haven't been in the city for a couple of days, so maybe i will go to frisco...a free night i haved to figure saomething out to do...unless i get sicker or sicklier, whatever...certain things in life have a dynamic that is hard to ascertain, once you get a good idea tho, it gets easier to delineate the logical conclusion for all patterns and concepts...this still doesn't make that conclusion easy to digest, it just means you know how much you are about to hurt before you get struck by the blow...it allows for some preparation, but loss is loss, rejection is rejection, it all comes back to your own doorstep and maintains its origination with you...you are the master of your own demise and the creator of your own destiny, but you cannot do much about other peoples destinations and demises, give all you can, and hope for a break in the storm before something drowns, hope...it is the commerce of fools...it is all some of us have left...