monday morning, err, afternoon...last night was much smoke and loud sound system, i was unable to carry on conversation, i am late for a meeting with a bankruptcy lawyer...this shit takes forever and bothers me to no end, i never wanted a bank account or credit cards and, well i got that shit now and it has been nothing but a fucking headache and i cant wait to go back too hustling for whatever it takes to make it and getting by with whatever i can get by on...i should be writing all the stuff i am behind on... but i just got up and i am goin' to workout, do laundry and run the tape from the show last night...today is my first monday of legal divorce, doesn't feel any different, except i don't think i will get any more calls from vegas, at least not from her part of vegas...i wish the car was running well enough to go to bolinas, next week, maybe...there is a noticable increase in the greenery and the bird activity today...police fired rubber bullets on some friends of mine, the first time i got hit with a rubber bullet i thought i was shot, that shit hurts like a motherfucker, i guess that is why they call it war, cuz it hurts like a motherfucker...i am goin' to the prom, if that is interesting to anyone, please explain why, because i am unclear on that and would like some clarification...i have no date or tux...somehow i am figuring that it won't matter, but if it does will i turn into a pumkin? the mystery is building...i live in my office, as my empire collapses, i had to give up my haight st. apt. and i lost my hollywood apt. last month, i have been thinkin' about squatting or moving to belize or costa rica...i still have a 10 acre spot near joshua tree that has a jackrabbit shack on it and a spring that never goes dry...i have a lil' canyon that i target practice in and a kennel for my dogs there, i could be happy...meditate and sun worship and look for ufo's at night...the wind can make you lonely, though, it howls at night and sometimes you can hear it call out to you if you been out there all winter...time to do tai chi and get blood pumping properly.....