razor13

i was walking down the streetwhen my neck clenched on the left side and sent a spasm of pain through my body. it is just like that sometimes, an innocent moment ungaurded is overtaken by a dark evil simply because of opportunity. this day has been all thick air and harsh sounds with visuals like looking through a scratched lens. it is spring after the scant rainfall has passed and another drought is immenent. it is also a month to Cinco de Mayo, a day of celebration around here. no contemplation of a future fiesta for me, though, only this pain in my neck and the premonition that i never had any control to begin with so it was something i never could have lost. i am trying to make this a day of acceptance on a grand scale. i want no part of what people are willing to argue over. i only want what i can take for the moment. nothing complicated or formal is interesting today, details are a fibrous contamination that irritate my thoughts. i will fight no battle for control, i will make love when i can, drink when i am able and never argue about my contradicting lifestyle from now on. i will simply stare at life with dark pits as eye sockets until my eyes dry up and roll down my cheeks like raisins, it is just like that sometimes....