i am a lil' blind today, and the wounds of losing are still pretty fresh, today its time to pay off what you lay off, gambling sucks when you are losing, i guess it kinda sucks when you are winning too, nothing a lil' love couldn't heal, problem is there is a bit of a love drought in my life right now. maybe i am too old to be lovable, ahhhhh, fuck it. my lil' puppy loves me, i will teach her how to kill soon. she will take her place as the top bitch in the kennel. someone tried to kill me last night and failed, i wasn't gonna mention it, but it is pretty foremost in my head, the world is like that when you are hated. i'm not concerned, they showed a lot of fear and hesitation, you can't do it like that. you will fail veerytime if you do not steel yourself to do the job right. fortunately, no innocent people got hurt. it is strange to wonder sometimes what would happen if you let your gaurd down at the wrong moment and luck wasn't there, but then i guess that is how it goes, and you can't change fate, i am lucky i was made hard to kill, it is the only thing that keeps me goin' most of the time lately....
razor13:
a near miss is still far enough away to keep a lil' hope alive, strugglin' against captivity, against corruption brought by oneself, against your own liabilities and limitations, it is a fight to the death....