razor13

you wake up too early and try to please the man, but he's got your # and he's not letting it go for nothing, cuz' he knows somewhere along the lines that you got away with something and he wants to make you pay for every little thing, it has to be itemized and list on the rap sheet with all the shit they put in you r and you fight it and fight it and if they catch you breaking under the pressure they are always right there to make you pay and pay and your always caught off gaurd cuz' you don't keep reciepts or remember trivial bullshit and when they ask "what have you got to show?" your caught way off gaurd cuz' you were too busy fuckin' livin' to be playin' their game and they play with your life like a cat squashin' cockroaches and you have to witness all this unfair fuckin' cruelty and pain on every level of the game and they break their rules off up in your ass and leave it there and the best you can hope for is to survive and never break you fuckin' word, never let em' rob you of your self, endure the pain, endure the sadness, endure the fuckin' rape and the torture until they have to stop and take a breath and keep somethin', even if its just one lil' thing, even if it seems like nothing to anybody but you, keeep that close no matter how much you have to do to keep it close until that fuckin' moment that they ease upjust a lil', and then keep still, keep very, very still and they might think they got you, they might make that mistake that power-mad, selfish, wealthy, biggoted , control tripping fuckers always make, then when you catch your breath and and draw all the strenght you can of that one last bit that you were saving, then crawl away into the darkness and rebuild yourself and live, live beyond their expectations, live for all the ones who didn't get that far, for the ones who were murdered, suicided, fell through the cracks, rebuild yourself with their memory always present and stand strong as you can, let wind touch your hair, the sun touch your skin, look at world with these eyes of a hundred fallen commiserants, and smile and enjoy life while it is there to enjoy because they will be back to break you all over again and it will always be when you least expect it...