rayla

Hello again my beautiful SG family. @rambo @missy @lyxzen

Now this blog I was going to leave, because I don't think Iv ever really been given a nickname 🤔 or at least one that's stuck. Iv been called kitty, Barbie ha so original, and once a little girl I use to care for decided one day my name was Katty Batty and went on calling me that for an entire year. So I guess you could say that my nickname is Katty Batty lol.

But to make my blog a little more interesting, I thought I'd share with you how I chose my SG name. And to be honest it wasn't an easy task at first, I mean Suicidegirls is extremely popular to say the least. And me being a slow poke and only getting my ass into gear this year to join and trying my luck at being apart of this beautiful community. Was damn hard I mean just about every name I could think of was taken 😪 I sat for ages sifting through names,I wanted something with a meaning, something that I thought would suit me/match my face and sound great with suicide attached to it. Just in case I made it 😁

I didn't even have a name picked when I went to shoot my first set. But I had narrowed it down to two names.

Freyja- old Norse mythology, meaning lady. Was the goddess of love beauty death and war. She also rode a chariot pulled by two giant cats 🙀 that sold me.

Acantha- Greek mythology, means thorn, prickle. She was a nymph loved by Apollo.

Then something happened that made me think of another name. A couple of months back I lost someone very special to me, it is by far the hardest thing Iv had to deal with I think about them every minute of every day! His name was Ray he was completely bonkers had a crazy temper, and when he didn't cut his hair I swear he looked like Krusty the clown. But he also had the most wonderful smile, he gave the best hugs that made you never want to let go, he had such a beautiful outlook on life and never took a day for granted. He would say the sun is shining and you can get up out of bed? That means it's a beautiful day so smile.

I want to always remember him the way I do now, I want to remind myself everyday to be thankful for what I have and the beauty that surrounds me, to always be kind and empathetic.

One morning when I was laying in bed still trying to pick my brain for a name, a beautiful ray of sunshine shon from my window straight onto a picture of him. It was like he was there with me helping me as he always did, the name Rayla popped into my just like that and I was sold, it reminded me of him and the sun. It made me smile, I decided suit me or not that would be my name my little piece of him to carry with me always and hopefully to help remind me everyday of the beautiful things he taught me over the years.

So that's my story of my SG name. I only hope I can do it justice and make him proud.