Argh. Journal Entries.
Latest Events: Moving into a nice trailer and lot next month and am getting paid well. I've got this side enterprise that may treat me well and its legal, for once. Some people knock trailers but try to find a livable 2 bedroom home for less than $5k. With all the cheap living I will be doing, I can start planning trips. Next destination: Japan. I'ts probably the only country left where 'merican's aren't harrassed on the street.
I have this recurring dream about this classic "girl that got away". The general dream is that I finally locate where she lives and confirm that she is single. I go to the house, which is practically a castle, and her father (who really liked me) said she wasn't home and invites me in. She arrives and she treats me cold and reviles me. Then I wake up.
In this version her dad lets me watch his house and somehow I discover a porno is being shot in one of the bedrooms. I am asked to join in so I say why the hell not. There is a little bi thing going on between this guy and gal but I am in too much extacy to start gender discrimination. The girl arrives and she is still stunning and smells like a bouquet of roses fresh cut from the the Garden of Paradise , like she used to. She pissed that a porno is being shot in her house and her dad arrives and starts complaining that there is $40,000 worth of damage to the house and they both ask me to leave. The camera crew of the porno films me as I cry at her doorstep.
I won't over analyze this more than it needs to be. She was the most beautiful girl I had ever loved and I've been in a year long dry spell and I guess she represents my lost youth which I will never recapture. But I like being a grown up and have dodged the marriage/mortgage/divorce/debt trap most people my age are in. I think you really are as young as you think.
Latest Events: Moving into a nice trailer and lot next month and am getting paid well. I've got this side enterprise that may treat me well and its legal, for once. Some people knock trailers but try to find a livable 2 bedroom home for less than $5k. With all the cheap living I will be doing, I can start planning trips. Next destination: Japan. I'ts probably the only country left where 'merican's aren't harrassed on the street.
I have this recurring dream about this classic "girl that got away". The general dream is that I finally locate where she lives and confirm that she is single. I go to the house, which is practically a castle, and her father (who really liked me) said she wasn't home and invites me in. She arrives and she treats me cold and reviles me. Then I wake up.
In this version her dad lets me watch his house and somehow I discover a porno is being shot in one of the bedrooms. I am asked to join in so I say why the hell not. There is a little bi thing going on between this guy and gal but I am in too much extacy to start gender discrimination. The girl arrives and she is still stunning and smells like a bouquet of roses fresh cut from the the Garden of Paradise , like she used to. She pissed that a porno is being shot in her house and her dad arrives and starts complaining that there is $40,000 worth of damage to the house and they both ask me to leave. The camera crew of the porno films me as I cry at her doorstep.
I won't over analyze this more than it needs to be. She was the most beautiful girl I had ever loved and I've been in a year long dry spell and I guess she represents my lost youth which I will never recapture. But I like being a grown up and have dodged the marriage/mortgage/divorce/debt trap most people my age are in. I think you really are as young as you think.