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Tuesday Apr 15, 2003

Apr 15, 2003
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i'm one tired girl. the dj gig was superfun but i only got a few hours of sleep and had piles of work to get through today. i have a feeling i'll be going to sleep damn early tonight.

i've reached a point with my zine where i am having trouble deciding how personal i can get. obviously names and identifying details will be changed, but i really don't know how much of myself i am comfortable sharing. i try not to be one of those people who is too open, but i also try to share my thoughts and feelings with the people i'm close to. we'll see what happens.

question:
how old do you feel? growing up, i always felt more mature then most of my classmates, largely because i was a bookish nerd who read all time and could discuss theory and politics. now i see people my age who are married and have babies and working horrible jobs, and i feel like such a little kid. i make sure the cat gets fed, that's about it. i've lived through a lot, but i still feel like a silly girl sometimes....
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joubee:
Growing up I think we look to self-rectify more than when we are older.........therfore we look for the things that make us feel older...........book nerds look to their books and popular girls look to their cigarettes. As we become older the self-rectifying starts to recede and we have a clearer less ego-driven picture of ourselves, taking into account the black, white, and grey.
Apr 15, 2003
scooter11:
(I would like to note that this is now my 6th attempt to post this. I hope these glitches get worked out soon...)
I feel almost exactly like you do in the last paragraph. In high school people used to consider me a little old man; I was cranky, insular, too much into politics and book-larnin'. Now I'm much more social, but I feel incredibly immature now, as if I'm still living like sophomore. My friends having kids freaks me out, although I know that for any vaguely normal person that's the rule rather than the exception at this point.
I guess at least it's better than feeling old, eh? confused
Apr 16, 2003

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