now back to our regularly scheduled overanalysis of the mundane....
based on some of the conversations i've had about my previous entry, i think that i have, in fact, bought into the "samantha jones/ bad girl" myth. i put up the facade of "look at me! i can run around and sleep with whomever i like! who needs love? i can't be hurt! let me give you a postmodern anarchafeminist critique of sexual politics." but i am only human, and thus, nothing is ever as black and white as i would like it to be....
i can be an asshole in relationships. the karma police are arresting me right about now. i once led someone on for two years, taking advantage of his blind devotion and the fact that he was willing to be my sugar daddy. i have left lovers because they were bad in bed, or becuase i fell for someone else on a whim. and now i find myself with the proverbial shoe on the other foot, and realize that there is no "fair" when it comes to any of this. this all seems so basic and trivial, but i guess the adage is true: your problems are bigger than anyone else's because they're yours.
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an aside: many thanks to the member who suggested i turn off the image viewer in my browser so i could surf at work.
based on some of the conversations i've had about my previous entry, i think that i have, in fact, bought into the "samantha jones/ bad girl" myth. i put up the facade of "look at me! i can run around and sleep with whomever i like! who needs love? i can't be hurt! let me give you a postmodern anarchafeminist critique of sexual politics." but i am only human, and thus, nothing is ever as black and white as i would like it to be....
i can be an asshole in relationships. the karma police are arresting me right about now. i once led someone on for two years, taking advantage of his blind devotion and the fact that he was willing to be my sugar daddy. i have left lovers because they were bad in bed, or becuase i fell for someone else on a whim. and now i find myself with the proverbial shoe on the other foot, and realize that there is no "fair" when it comes to any of this. this all seems so basic and trivial, but i guess the adage is true: your problems are bigger than anyone else's because they're yours.
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an aside: many thanks to the member who suggested i turn off the image viewer in my browser so i could surf at work.
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demigauge:
yeah i can be a bitch also in a realathinship....i think it just comes caturaly due to past realthionships....but yeah
scooter11:
Yeah, you're 1005 right about avoiding real life...my MA was strictly a dealying action. But it ended up workign out, at least to a point...