Ok, it has been a century since I last wrote on this blog. Loads of stuff have happened, most important one I moved to Shanghai three months ago. Nice place, only problem I got hooked by a cute girl next day after I arrived. She seemed all right, a bit naughty, a bit crazy, but I did my best to make her happy and stick together... my thought was, "ok you bastard, you came here after fucking up everything for the last ten years, you have kids who don't even know your face, you are still married in South America, you have been sailing in troubled waters for far too long, dock here, start a proper life, make someone happy, settle down, don't let things get screwed this time" ...and believe me I tried to be a better man for her, I picked up that girl at work every day, I cared for her when she was tired, I had patience when she was a fool, I even took her for a trip to Malaysia for which I had to sell someone's kidney. I even met her family, dinned with them for the last month, I was the first one she introduced to them. At the end she even had a fucking engagement ring and we were already planning to move in together. She was happy as a kid opening Christmas gifts, but she had to fuck it all up, she had to cheat with some fucking idiot. A photo of his lover mini-asian dick I found in her mobile, with all the messages they had been exchanging while pretending she was in love and looking forward to start a life together. I have been such an idiot, wasting hopes and dreams on another bitch. Now looking for another city, moving away to anywhere else more humane than this, inner China, wherever to live with ease, cheap accommodation, less expats, a mentality less fucked up by materialism and selfishness, somewhere closer to nature, less polluted, whatever but this crazy place where I could fuck until death but would never get what I truly want, some peace after so many years at war with this fucked up world.
